Playlist #3: kai&soo

kai&soo from teamin on 8tracks Radio.

I didn't really have anything better to do so I made a playlist inspired by Kaisoo! Basically, the songs here remind me of them and the way they interact/treat each other. The playlist can be listened on its own even if you don't ship Kaisoo. I would really appreciate it if you could tell me your thoughts about the playlist and maybe recommend me a few songs that remind you of Kaisoo or your own OTP? ^^ 

By the way, enjoy~

[list under the cut]

This is me with fandom: EXO Fanartists

Today while I was waiting for the rice to cook, I went over to YouTube and started watching DVD previews from various Kyungsoo and Jongin fansites, and when I was scrolling through the Related and Recommended videos on the right side, I stumbled upon this breathtaking video:

and I am simply blown away that she managed to make this piece of beauty in 71 minutes!!!

And then good old Youtube recommended me some more fanart videos:

and after falling in love with these, I wanted more so I went here and as expected, I ended up watching everything OTL

My heart hurts because all the pieces are so achingly beautiful AUGH HOW DO YOU TALENT???

This is me with fandom: BaekYeon woes

Okay, so I just realized that I sound like an emotionless prick in my last post regarding the issue of Baekhyun and Taeyeon dating, and I'd really like to clarify some things for my own sake (mostly for the sake of my sanity because I have a lot of feelings bottled up inside me and I think I'm going to explode if I don't let them out). I know my stand on the issue isn't important so I'm going to put up a fair warning that you are not inclined to read about what I have to say. The things under this cut are my own feelings and thoughts regarding the matter and I would like you to respect them as much as I am willing to respect yours.

I've seen two sides of the fandom today: the ones who joked about the whole Baekhyun & Taeyeon dating thing, and the ones who cannot accept the news. I think it's okay to be protective when it comes to our biases, but being possessive is not entirely something I think highly of.

Of course, I cannot speak for what Baekhyun stans are feeling right now but I'm happy for Baekhyun. He gives me hope (I'm not saying that I can date my biases too because the possibility of that happening is non-existent, what I mean is that it's perfectly okay to aim high lol)

(SM, if this is just a ploy, I'm giving up on you) ((I've given up on you a long time ago)) (((I am allowing myself the liberty to give up on you again)))

Ode to the beautiful broken ballerino

to the boy with the sunshine smile

and feather-light feet

who turns and pirouettes with every single heartbeat.

you've got me weak on the knees,

my lungs feel like collapsing

but i don't mind the way

that you take my breath away.

when you said you wanted to dance,

what did the world have in store?

bright lights and adoring fans,

are these what you asked for?

but whatever path that has led you to me,

i'm thankful that it has made me see -

see you in your beautiful form

of grace and of passion,

of silly bubbling laughter,

of warmth and of the most powerful emotion.

(tell me, is it love?)

but it's okay, dream boy.

i do not deserve an explanation.

---

inspired by the video above and this article. 

a few things:

• Concert day concert day today is CONCERT DAY!!!
• Jfc I've been chanting that ever since the moment I woke up this morning that it's getting a bit ridiculous but I'm just so excited??? Like even if I don't get to attend the concert itself, I'm so happy that the boys will get to fulfill one of their dreams and I want them to bask in the glory that they rightfully deserve after all the years of vigorous training and hard work. 
• And also, I am incredibly excited at the prospect of the members cross-dressing. IT'S INITIATION NIGHT, MY LOVELY BOYS. I bet all your sunbaes know your pain.
• I had a mini breakdown yesterday when I found out that MPST is releasing a photo book. I was thisclose to ordering Hyperbeat (because I have the misfortune of liking a certain Oh Sehun's facial features ugh smh) last year when I still had the money but I promised myself that I was going to wait for MPST because I'm biased and holy cow have you seen MPST's photos and videos? ART, I TELL YOU. FREAKING MASTERPIECES THEY MAKE ME CRY. But it just so happens that I am broke(n) right now and MSPT's photo book is probably the most expensive I've come across so far (Hyperbeat's was only around 2.2k, that's 1k less than MPST's why is the world so cruel /sobs).
• And then you know on Twitter, I came across a photo of the Overdose clearfile folders that SM's currently selling and I want the Kai and Kyungsoo folders so bad I even went around to searching up PH group orders and found out that they were all closed already. But I'm a masochist so I still went around converting the prices and it turns out that each clearfile folder costs 400 pesos. 400 pesos for a single clearfile folder HAHAHAHAHA SM, I DO NOT REEK OF MONEY ;__________;

This is me with fandom: from Kris back to Wu Yifan

Never in my 7 years in the Kpop fandom have I felt sadness as crippling as the one I feel right now. I am sad but I am also hurt, confused, and worried. Let me just lay it for you that for the past 24+ hours, my fandom has been in utter chaos. Rumors were being strewn everywhere and we didn't know what and who to believe in. It got to a point that I felt extreme frustration and disappointment in regards to how everyone was handling the situation, myself included. When something as big as news of a member filing a lawsuit against his company for contract nullification surfaces, mayhem is bound to happen. And the way the fandom took the news and played the blame game, pointed fingers, and basically jumped to conclusions without proper verification just made me realize how important it is to take everything with a grain of salt and wait for official statements.

I don't blame Tao for feeling betrayed. I don't blame the members for unfollowing Kris on Instagram. I don't blame Kris for wanting to leave. Heck, I don't even blame SM for what's happening right now. Maybe I'm going to sound like a bad fan but Kris probably knew what he was getting himself into when he joined SM and if he didn't, well then I guess he's reached his breaking point and wants out. And that's okay, it's perfectly fine that he wants to be treated differently as opposed to how the company has treated him all these years. I am just extremely worried for the rest of the members because I don't know how they're currently handling the situation and what's going to happen to them. The past two days have been a roller-coaster ride of emotions and I am still waiting for the dust to settle but I do have a few thoughts regarding the whole matter:

Album Review #5: EXO-K's Overdose

With EXO's rising popularity and their mere appearance causing mayhem everywhere they go, it's only anticipated that they should deliver what is expected from them. With their latest mini-album dominating the music charts and achieving an all-kill status, EXO seems to be the main contender to beat right now. But with every successful album comes great and not-so-great songs and I'm here to share my thoughts and opinions regarding the new songs that they've put out for both their fans and the general public. Fair warning that you do not have to necessarily agree with what I have to say as I am entitled to my own opinion as much as you are entitled to your own. I do not claim that my thoughts are the right and only true ones as these are the mere words of a girl with too much time to spare and too much love and appreciation for a Korean pop group. Also, I do not get money out of doing this, just sheer unadulterated joy.

So if you're interested to read about what I think of EXO-K's Overdose, the album review is under the breakthrough! :)

Blognote #14: {05/06/14}

I had a blast today! I woke up at 6 a.m to the sound of Kyungsoo's morning wake-up call just because I wanted a good start to what I hoped would be a great day. And a great day it was, indeed!

I went over to Joy's house and it was a good thing that by the time I arrived, she was already up. I had an inkling beforehand that maybe I still had to shake her awake because I know that girl's sleeping habits u___u We went over to McDonald's to have breakfast and when we were lining up to order, I got surprised by a girl running to our direction at full speed, her arms wide open for a hug. Turned out it was Natasha! I missed her so much and it was good to see her after such a long time, especially since today is Baekhyun's birthday and Baek's her bias. After a bit of small talk, we went over to our table and waited for Joy's parents to fetch us and drive us to Asyana's club house, where we swam and had hearty conversations in their pool. It was good catching up with Frances, Julienne, Melissa, and Francine and it was sad that the day passed by quickly for me. They're in the Panaad Stadium right now watching a football game that I was supposed to attend as well but my mother declined because I live far away (boooooooooo).

On the bright side, look the things Julienne got me from Taiwan!!!!!!!!!!!

140424 - Fans chase Taemin and Kai

So I don't know if you guys have seen this video clip already but I still wanted to share it nonetheless. Apparently, some fans chased them around 3 a.m. last mornight and scared the living daylights out of them. Let me tell you, waking up to a video of my biases running for their lives was not pleasant at all, especially when I only had about 4 hours of troubled sleep. I don't know if it's true that Taemin cried after the incident but I'm fucking sure he was traumatized.

Clearly, when someone's running away from you as if their lives depended on it while you're chasing them, I think it's an obvious sign that I don't know ... THAT MAYBE YOU SHOULD STOP??? I cannot speak for what the fans felt when they saw them although I'm pretty sure they were extremely excited and overwhelmed but I don't think scaring your oppas is the best approach, especially if you want to leave a good impression. Seeing our biases in the flesh can leave anyone (including me) a bit crazed, but it's still common etiquette to give them some space, especially when they're probably tired from their activities and hectic schedules because at the end of the day, even when they're flashing bright smiles to the cameras, they are still human beings like the rest of us and they are what we all are - tired and vulnerable. 

Honestly, I can't even take the "fans" in the video seriously because this is sasaeng activity at work and it's just really fucking sad because it just makes the boys even more afraid of the people who supposedly love and support them. I don't even know half of the horrible things they've experienced (and continue experiencing) from sasaengs but seeing this video clip just made my heart hurt.

I rest my case. I just hope Taemin and Jongin are all right and that this kind of thing won't happen again (even though the chances of it not happening again are about as negative as my outlook on life at the moment). Also, I think reading this would be helpful to everyone.

This is me with fandom: #PrayForSouthKorea

I normally don't let my opinions regarding public issues known on the internet because I know that not everyone is going to agree with what I have to say so instead of brewing misunderstandings and disagreements, I just keep my mouth shut. Blogging is an easy platform to convey my feelings but having an audience can also backfire on me if I'm not careful. To put in other words, I am actually very opinionated but I keep things to myself because I don't want anyone to get hurt. 

But ever since the South Korean tragedy with the sunken ferry, I've been having some thoughts regarding the matter. I tend to get really aggressive when it comes to social issues and some fans' reactions to the delayed music video for EXO's Overdose really got on my nerves. I'll be honest, when I came home to a tweet from a friend claiming of the cancellation of the music video's release, I was a bit annoyed. But that was before I knew about the incident with Sewol and after some thorough searching and reading regarding the topic at hand, my heart began to ache but it wasn't from the delayed MV, it was from the heavy weight of trying to digest what just happened to the students who have risked their lives and to those who are, up to now, still fighting for survival.

And then I saw this screen cap on my timeline and I was absolutely livid.

bc I'm having Jongin feelings, I wrote a little something

It starts in the way Jongin breathes. Every inhale and every exhale and I think he's beautiful in the way he just exists. Even the odd-scented mix of cigarettes and old books that I think stains the fabric of his skin has my mind reeling in a thousand different directions. Next is in the way he dances. Every fluid movement and every powerful turn strum my heartstrings and produce a melody I can't quite pinpoint but it almost sounds like the fluttering of butterfly wings. Fleeting, soft, and achingly beautiful. Another is in the way he shows happiness. Crescent-shaped eyes and a smile that could battle the majesty of the stars, laughter so rich and delicious that I could wrap it up in a burrito  and eat it raw. Last is in the way he brings passion to the stage. He is a powerhouse filled with so much energy that I feel weak in the knees every time he performs like he was born to be admired by the world. He belongs to the stage and he belongs to the wild cheers and the flickering silver ocean. But sadly, he does not belong with me.

This is me with fandom: #HappySehunDay

So it is ultimately your choice whether to take this seriously or not. I did a video blog last night but that turned out to be a horrible idea because I just kept on rambling so I sang him a song instead. Obviously, I altered the lyrics. I'm probably going to regret this later but whatever. #HappySehunDay

I only did this because I'm mean to him and I insult him 99% of the time. After this day, we shall pretend this video and the song never existed. Although, I might do a full version if anyone wants lmao. Also, no sappy long love letter for the birthday boy because writing him heartfelt messages makes me uncomfortable even though I love him with half of my heart (the other half can't stand him, don't blame me, blame his face and his stupidly endearing personality).

Oh, and in celebration of his birthday, I am temporarily @yehetimamoron on twitter. I don't know, it just kinda fit (no one look at me).

Hello! I just got back from a trip to UP-Miagao because I passed some requirements and checked out their available dorms. I was frustrated upon finding out that I can't actually pick the people I want to room with since the people in charge will be the ones choosing for me. They said it's for my own benefit so that I can get to know the students better but I can pick my roommates from 2nd semester onwards which is a relief. Even though I'm eager to meet new people and make friends out of them, I can't deny the fact that I'd be much more comfortable if I live with people I'm already well-acquainted with (especially since Anne Mary, Manuela, and Kathleen are close friends of mine and I've known all three of them for half of my life).

As for the campus itself ... I'M FREAKING IN LOVE WITH IT. It's incredibly huge and about 10x bigger than my previous school that we actually had to ride tricycles just to get from one building to another. Just picture out a school in the middle of a huge-ass forest and BAM that's where I'll be spending the next years of my life. MOUNTAINS. TREES. THICK FOLIAGE. It's no wonder everyone who knows me says that it's the perfect place for me because. it. really. is!!! I'll take photos when I go back on the 8th of May for my Medical Examination and dorm application interview (speaking of dorm applications, I still have to write an essay with the theme: "Who Am I?" like what??? kill me now)

Another thing about Miagao (the little mountain town where my school is located), it's so far away from the main city of Iloilo that you can just get yourself lost in its charm. The people are really nice and helpful and even though there isn't a fast-food restaurant in sight, there are lots of little bistros and coffee shops situated around the town. The only thing I'm actually concerned about is WiFi lol

On another note, I came home to a little surprise!

 

Two weeks of waiting and they're finally in my hands!

Happy #2YearsWithEXO!!! I feel inclined to write something sappy but I'm pretty sure no one wants a 5-page essay ^^

2048: EXO Edition

So if you're familiar with the game 2048 (I like these kinds of games, I mean the only games I have on my phone are Text Twist and Word Search, NO ONE LOOK AT ME), I would just like to inform you that there are two existing EXO versions of said game that's currently rising to fame (or it's already insanely popular and I'm just out of loop).

The pretty boy version:

The gorgeous supermodel very handsome oppa version:

It's fun!!! If you're bored or waiting for your downloads to finish (because I feel you), how about you play a game or two? 

ALSO, COMEBACK IS NEAR!!! PREPARE YOURSELVES FOR BATTLE BECAUSE WE ARE GOING TO DIE!!!!!!!!!!! Also, my mother did not raise me to grow up with these kinds of frustrations just because of boys changing their hair colors but Sehun's hair is black and I am a puddle on the floor. IF SM DARES TOUCHING KYUNGSOO'S RAVEN LOCKS, I AM GOING TO probably do nothing except internally weep and feel sorry for myself. BUT BLONDE JONGIN AND BLACK-HAIRED SEHUN, BAEKHYUN, AND YIXING, THERE IS HOPE FOR THIS WORLD!!! and wow mamma mia Suho looks gwapito as a blonde

This is me with fandom: EXO, let's love!

So I just watched the last episode of EXO's Showtime last night because life's been on the fast lane for me as of late. The past few weeks, I didn't really have enough time to sit down and watch and that's actually really sad on its own but the last episode inevitably made me cry. I mean, it practically signifies the end of an era so of course it turned out to be a tear-jerker. Or is it just me that's incredibly emotional? I hope you're in the same wavelength as me because I can't possibly be the only one who was making pitiful sounds while watching the last episode (especially the latter parts).

I think what's really tugging at my heartstrings is that this show has somewhat become a ticket to borrowed happiness for me. Each week, I had something to look forward to and it made things a little more bearable, knowing that I'd have something to smile at and laugh over once the work was done. The boys and their silly antics got me through a lot of stress and that's something I'll always be grateful for. Another is that maybe five or ten years from now, when the group is on the brink of disbanding or when their contracts end and everyone goes their separate ways, I'm going to re-watch the whole thing and remember all their happy times together. And I want to remember them as the twelve smiling happy idiots who could easily turn my mood from bad to good with their easy-going banter.

 

So a classmate of mine drew this portrait of Kyungsoo for me. She's amazingly talented and did this is 3 freaking hours with just colored pencils. No rough drafts whatsoever, she just up and drew and I am incredibly mindblown. If I had even just half of her skills, I'd be drawing everyone and everything.

If you want to see more of her works, check out her instagram!

#HappyKaisooDay

I have three exams tomorrow (including MATH) so I've got no time for sappy birthday messages (actually, I already wrote one for the MWAVE Giveaway Event but that was embarrassing lmao). 

But the Happiest Birthdays to my two lovelies!!!

 

And I made a Kaisoo remix hehe

This is me with fandom: literally

So basically, this is a post about me and a lot of feelings. This is for my own amusement actually. I think it might be a bad idea to proceed under the cut but read at your own risk.

a few things:

• I've got exactly one day left before this so called break ends and all I want is Chapter 29 of Zodiac. I need to know if Kyungsoo's plan will succeed and if they can actually take down the Fire Nation.
• I've got so much love for the series I mean I spent almost 8 straight hours reading 21 chapters last summer. Epitome of something you can't put down once you've started reading it. This is the real fandom classic (even though it's still ongoing).
• Last night, I felt sort of sad for no particular reason so I succumbed to retail therapy. I visited an online kpop shop just scanning through their items for sale when I chanced upon a poster of Sehun that I've really wanted for a long time now. Lucky thing it was still available! Funny thing is that when I finally sent in my order form, they told me that the Sehun poster I had my eye on was actually part of a pack of posters and in order for me to purchase it, I HAD TO BUY THE ENTIRE FREAKING PACK. Goodness what am I going to do with 10 Sehun posters??? But against my better judgment, I went out and said that I would buy the pack because I just need to have that poster of him. So after telling them that I was willing to buy the pack, I asked, "Do you have Kyungsoo posters too?" and they replied me with "Nope but we have Sehun postcards." I FROWNED AT MY LAPTOP. Seriously I did. I ask for Kyungsoo posters and you offer me Sehun postcards??? NO ME GUSTA
• "I'm sorry but Sehun's not even my bias. Please notify me when you have available Kyungsoo/Kai merch. Thank you."
• I've also been meaning to buy a pair of headphones for awhile now so I ordered a set of EXO custom designed headphones as well. Adios, Christmas money.