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I just had my final set of exams BOOYAH

A summary of how they went:

Filipino - SIR THANK YOU SIR ANG GANDA NG EXAM MAMIMISS TALAGA KITA

Health - Oh, wow a slogan. What a surprise!!! (not)

Math - What are the chances of me not graduating if I burn these test papers to smithereens?

Bookkeeping - I'M MISSING 10,000 PESOS WHERE'D IT GO HOW DO I BALANCE THESE ACCOUNTS IF I'M MISSING 10,000 PESOS OH MY GOD 13 MINUTES LEFT OH MY GOD I CAN'T BREATHE I'M GONNA DIE oh whoops there it is (I wrote 2,000 instead of 12,000 in my Accounts Receivable *shoots self* but good thing I realized my carelessness and I managed to balance the Debit and the Credit WOOHOO BOOKKEEPING FOREVER LIFE OR DEATH SITUATION HAHAHAHUHU)

CLE - This is the last time I'll be writing down essays for CLE... HALLELUJAH

English - The only major exam I'm confident about

Economics - Thanks

Physics - "Heeyyyyyy, I'm getting the hang of this, this is actually kind of okay hehehe wAIT WHAT UNITS WHAT WHAT WHAT OH HELL NO THIS IS NOT OKAY. THIS IS NOT OKAY AT ALL"

But really, the important thing is that I am finally free from the clutches of High School lol I'M A FREE WOMAN

I WANNA SCREAM AND SHOUT AND LET IT ALL OUT 

School is finally taking its toll on my sanity. Hell week is going to commence on Monday because we have our ISW on Friday plus we've got long tests from Monday to Thursday every. single. day. I have an inkling the Physics long test is going to fall on Monday and I'm ready to drop down on my knees because I'll be out the whole Sunday for the radiobroadcasting thingamajig which means that I'll most likely cram again. My insecurities are eating me from the inside out and I'm starting to lose faith in myself. I'm not even going to the Big Sis - Lil Sis party anymore because I've got things to do and not much time/energy to do all of them (plus Mom wants me to stay at home because she says I've been too out and about and I'm just ??????).

AND OUR GRAD SONG. GRAD SONG. GRAD SONG GUUUUUUUUUUUUUUH

I'm sorry if all I've done is rant the past few days. I just need to fucking let these out of my system.

Scroll along now (or not).

HUHU WHAT IS THIS 321 SHINee GODDAMNIT I AM SO BEHIND ON FANDOM THINGS

hear me out?

Hi, guys, life's been a series of ups and downs for me as of late. I feel like I'm on a roller-coaster ride going nowhere. I broke down last Sunday night when I thought I'd lost the notebook where I've been writing all my poems for the book but I found it yesterday lying around on my mother's bed and I almost broke down again just from the sheer happiness of having found it. I woke up at 4:30 a.m. today to make myself two egg sandwiches with mayonnaise and cheese to bring to school only to realize that I'd forgotten to put them inside my bag when I stepped inside my classroom. It instantly dampened my already bad Tuesday morning mood (our Tuesday schedule sucks). This Friday I'm watching a special screening of Catching Fire with my schoolmates and all proceeds will go to a fundraising project spearheaded by one of my friends, Frances, who happens to be the student council president. By the way, if you're from school and you don't have any plans on Friday, come watch with us! There are still tickets available and you'll be watching the movie for a good cause. On the topic of Friday, I just found out today that I won't be able to watch MAMA 2013 live and that's a real bummer but I'll be sleeping over at Joy's house and hopefully, I'll be able to catch up on the things I've missed. I actually have a busy weekend ahead of me. There's the Big Sis - Lil Sis party on Saturday afternoon and I haven't actually talked to my "little sister" yet but I have an inkling she'll be there nonetheless. I'm not actually all that confident but I just hope we'll get along well. After Saturday's events, I have to attend the DSPC (Division Schools Press Conference) on Sunday. Never thought I'd be able to join but I'm one of the scriptwriters for the Radio-broadcasting team. I don't know if they were being serious about assigning me as team leader since I have zero experience but I'll take whatever comes along. I need to step out of my comfort zone and get myself out there, if you know what I mean.

November is such a busy bee of a month. I'm only halfway through with it yet I am already incredibly drained. I still have a news article to write and I don't know how to write a news article. I don't know how to write when it truly counts, period. The long tests and projects and activities are piling up and it is so overwhelming. If I am this tired, I wonder how my other classmates feel, especially the ones who've got loads more on their plates as opposed to my meager stack.

I sincerely hope you're feeling better than I am.

This day has been somewhat... eventful? I woke up around 5:30 a.m. which basically meant that I had less than 20 minutes to shower and change and gulp down a spoonful of ube jam for breakfast. Damn it, ube jam from Baguio is the food of the gods. The minute I walked inside my classroom, I plopped on my seat and planned on drifting off to sleep but KC was right beside me and even though I was very very very sleepy, I remembered about EXO's stint on Running Man and I immediately engaged in a conversation with her that mainly consisted of flailing around, laughing over Kris' endearing stupidity, and complaining about Sehun's inability to hide. 

AND GUYS I GET THE LESSON IN PHYSICS AND MATH. I'M SO PROUD OF MYSELF

In other news, we went to Andres Bonifacio Elementary School and taught 2nd graders and when we were on our way back to school, this happened:

We all just sort of went "Holy shit asdjfksdajlhdkjfsghkjdfhkjhfdlsjhgsakjhgd" when the taxi collided with the pick-up but people eventually calmed down. Does anyone like my ninja photography skills? I was seated next to the teachers in charge but I think they were a little too preoccupied with the minor accident to notice me when I was taking this picture. Turned out that the passengers inside the taxi were Koreans and when they got out, Julienne, Chinney, Janina, and the rest of dem folks started shouting, "Chryss!!! Your relatives!!!!!!" and I face-palmed like I've never face-palmed before.

And then when I arrived back at the classroom, I saw this little chalked message scrawled on my desk:

Who's the culprit? Let me hug you ;~~~;

And then when I arrived at my house and managed to unlock the gate and the front door, I went straight to the PC and started turning it on but then there was a sudden brownout. Huzzah. Said brownout lasted for an hour. Another huzzah.

Good night, I still have to (cry on) answer my Physics homework.

Please continue to pray for the victims of Typhoon Yolanda.

God bless you all.

Two Weeks in Photos {10/13/13 - 10/26/13}

ended up writing poems instead of focusing on studying for the exams. so what else is new

i just had to

sorry not sorry but this is sehun and kai to me in a nutshell

Two Weeks in Photos: {09/26/13 - 10/11/13}

my lovely seatmate Francesca made me an EXO friendship ring!!! ; u ;

shots taken last Teacher's Day!

September 2013 in Photos

I hereby officially crown September 2013 as the best month I've ever had in my life and I'll let these photos speak for me. So many blessings, so many wishes come true, so many reasons to be thankful. I'm extremely sad to bid it farewell but here's to hoping for better months to come!

the clouds during my plane ride to Manila. they took my breath away, i just had to take a photo

outside Araneta with my sister

fandom ocean! ♥

I was at the very back of the Green Gate patrons line. lmao

{more photos under the breakthrough}

Two weeks in photos: {08/18/13 - 08/31/13}

 Sabayang Pag-awit flags!!! ♥

[around 5 minutes before cards out]

there’s fire in my veins instead of blood and my head feels like a whirlpool and i don’t know whether to scream or laugh or cry or puke all my feelings out because i want to clean myself from guilt and other impurities. i don’t like this. i don’t like the emotions that are churning inside my system. you don’t deserve a lazy excuse of a daughter like me. i am so sorry i didn’t try hard enough. i am so sorry, i am so sorry, i am so sorry.

[around 5 minutes after cards out]

~LET’S SING HALLELUJAH~ Ｏ(≧▽≦)Ｏ

This Week in Photos: {08/11/13 - 08/17/13}

Current state of my "study table" oooh la la~

Hooray I have flowers

This Week in Photos {08/04/13 - 08/10/13}

The ticket to happiness arrived in the mail last Thursday and I had a mini-meltdown because 

ROW 1, SEAT 1

(Guys, it's really happening oh my fuck I'm going to fucking see them help can't breathe *wheezes*)

Intramurals 2013 (photos only)

From fresh to light to Incredibles, now here we are as Seniors.

(Photo credits to the amazing and talented Patricia Parcon)

a list of interesting things that happened today:

• Math long test like no other Math long test I've ever taken before. lol what was that all about
• "My butt is vibrating."
• "CHRYSS, HOW IS YOUR BUTT VIBRATING"
• Dindin singing at the top of her lungs even though she was off-key and Stiffy, Joy, and I suffering the consequences. And then it rained. Wow, I wonder who caused that???
• *coughs*
• Dindin had 40 minutes of free time to change but instead, chose to change when we were already near our destination. /facepalm
• Some of the best things happen when you're waiting in the backseat of a van with three other people and the four of you are cramped together with bongos.
• I accidentally called Joy's mother on her cellphone. Twice.
• Joy and I planning on forming an ~air drum~ group for the shizz. 
• S C R E A M O
• Inah telling me tips on how to gain weight because I promised my mom that I'll gain at least 2 kilograms before the concert as a sort of payback.
• Me forgetting about Heechul's birthday. /slams head on wall
• My mother telling me to go sleep in the bathroom because she was so focused on playing Candy Crush.
• Pia christening me with a new name, "Chryzzie". One more name to add to my mile-long list of names created by my friends. You guys are the best!!!
• My essay got picked. My essay actually got picked. I'm still wondering how and why that happened.

School sucks. Kyungsoo's hair is red, Sehun's hair is blue. I won't get to see Kris, Yixing, and Luhan and this is making my heart ache. The concert is still two months away and I just want to fast-forward to September 7 already. I'm planning on making a list of gifts to buy for them. On another note, we had an essay-writing contest today and my essay sucked. I didn't like the topic so I was frustrated and wrote with no feeling whatsoever. Right now, I want to lie down on a huge pile of feather pillows and just sleep all these assignments away but I've got a long test in Physics plus quizzes in Math, CLE, Health, English, and Filipino tomorrow.  Oh, and don't forget about the Dove screenings during recess and lunch time tomorrow!!!

Good luck to me, I hope I get through all of these alive.

a few things:

• Let the first thing on this post be a mandatory "EXO WON!!!" exclamation because the boys deserve all the wins and all the awards and all the good things in life. (Yes, even Oh Sehun and Kim Jongin)
• Everyone cried. I was wailing.
• I am reading four books at the moment. F O U R. Whenever I get tired of one book, I jump to the another. A bit insane, I know, but my attention span is close to non-existent right now what with all the things I have to do and not having enough time for all of them. I'm slightly going mad and I try to lose myself in the pages of the books hoping that I'll be able to find myself again at the end of every chapter. It's a nice distraction and it's kind of working. Sort of.
• BUT WHY AM I READING FOUR BOOKS WHEN I HAVE A SHIT TON OF HOMEWORK AND COLLEGE APPLICATION FORMS TO FILL OUT??? Someone slap some sense into me oh my god.
• On a brighter note, because I am so preoccupied with school, I tend to forget about all the things that usually bring me down, all the emotional bullshit I experienced this past summer. Except that I'm being bombarded with a new load of problems that are just as bad, if not worse.
• My sunflowers are wilting because the rainy season is here. 
• WHEN WILL THINGS LOOK UP???

just got home and i smell like sweat and sweet friendship. first day back at school was a blast and i don't know how many times i got hugged and tackled today but special mentions go to natasha and darla for screaming in my ear while embracing the life out of me. also to angel for spinning me around like a wee little doll. the morning consisted of a general assembly and an orientation given by our advisers and then we were dismissed at 11:20 and given the rest of the day off. frances, anne mary, princess, joy, and i headed to the nearest korean mini mart and had kimbap for lunch. sex in my mouth, i swear. afterwards, we went to robinson's to shop for school supplies and then hung out at green tree gelato cafe to wind down. when joy told the cashier that i was ordering green tea gelato, she asked me first if i wanted a free sample and i was a bit perplexed until i put two and two together and figured that people probably regretted ordering such a weird-tasting flavor. not everyone appreciates green tea like i do, i guess. but it was really goooooood. green tea ice cream owns my soul, i swear u____u

today was a good day <3

Just some photos from Junior Year because Senior Year starts on Monday and I'm having feelings.

 

I only had 2 hours of sleep last night but I survived the first day back at school without sleeping a wink in class, even during Chemistry.

Wow.

How?

Anyways, only got around 2 hours of sleep because I was hung-over this piece of beauty that is Kaisoo fanfiction at its finest. I read all 22k words during the earliest hours of the morning and couldn't get over it, thus me waking up deader than dead and wanting to destroy everything in my midst because I wanted precious, precious sleep but couldn't get any of it. But no regrets, just love because it was so fucking beautiful and I was so fucking mindfucked and I wanted to burn it to pieces too because character death makes me melt into a pile of mush.

First day back was fine but it could've been better. The clock in our classroom was busted which meant that the day went slower than it should've have and I kept glancing at the clock like an idiot, only to find out that it was still 8:45am in the fucking afternoon.

Oh, and Happy Birthday, Duizhang!!! I stayed up late last night to greet you, be thankful because I get up at 5m every morning. Saranghae, wo ai ni, I love you yeah yeah all that shit. I hope you never change, bitchface~ Heartzzz ^3^

Just got home from school. Debate during World History was so amusing. Also, we picked clubs this afternoon. Didn't take it seriously, I just want to be with my friends. I don't want to join the school paper because writing is bleeding and I don't want it to be anything else but. Journalism does not approve of reckless abandon and I would just feel trapped within myself. There are also a lot of rules that I have to follow and learn before I am allowed to bend them. In other words, writing about topics that are not relevant to my interests and following a certain composition is just not my 'thing'. I like letting myself go when I write.

On another note, my 4th grade service mate from a Chinese school who resembles Kai is the human embodiment of noise. I wanted to throw my cookie at him awhile ago. Poor cookie though.

I'm not so stupid after all.

Cards Out was this afternoon and I placed 6th in the whole class!

I was so shocked since I didn't take school seriously last quarter and every time I actually tried to study, something better would come along and I'd get distracted and it was goodbye to Biology textbooks and Math equations and hello to fictional characters and pretty boys.

I'm not so grade-conscious, but I do care about my studies. And I know that if I slack off, Mom would cut down my internet connection and I'd be done for good. I was so relieved to find out that I had honors. Plus, no line of 8's!!! They're all 9's and this has never happened in my high school life before so I was so fucking happy and proud of myself. ehehe

This afternoon was filled with so much hugging, congratulating, shouting, crying (both from immense sadness and satisfaction), and thanking no one in particular. The feeling was overwhelming but the good kind ♥