Words of a teenage escapist.

[around 5 minutes before cards out]

there’s fire in my veins instead of blood and my head feels like a whirlpool and i don’t know whether to scream or laugh or cry or puke all my feelings out because i want to clean myself from guilt and other impurities. i don’t like this. i don’t like the emotions that are churning inside my system. you don’t deserve a lazy excuse of a daughter like me. i am so sorry i didn’t try hard enough. i am so sorry, i am so sorry, i am so sorry.

[around 5 minutes after cards out]

~LET’S SING HALLELUJAH~ Ｏ(≧▽≦)Ｏ

I seriously thought I wasn't going to have any honor because I was such a lazy ass during the first quarter and I didn't particularly prioritize my studies (and school in general). Having this H2 on my card is a little bit too good to be true and I can't believe that I managed to get a 90 in Physics when I practically failed two quizzes but let me bask in my momentary happiness because YAY LOOK MOM EVEN THOUGH I'M FUCKING EXCITED FOR THE CONCERT AND I SPEND AT LEAST TWO HOURS ONLINE BUT ONLY HALF AN HOUR DOING ACTUAL HOMEWORK, I STILL MANAGED TO GET AN HONOR.

This one's for you, Mommy ;_______;

(I'll try harder this quarter)
((I promise))
(((But then that's what I always say)))