Keep on going and taste the stars.

As much as I love to write, I don’t really think I’m headed into that kind of direction.

Yes, I love pouring out my thoughts and transcending my ideas through words but I just can’t seem to see myself pursuing writing as a career. It’s just something I enjoy to do and I don’t want it be anything else but. One thing I really hate is being forced into making an opinion piece about something remotely uninteresting in my perspective and I think that if I make a career out of this hobby of mine, I don’t think I’d pull it off. Not one bit. And not to mention I don’t have the guts to survive the tough competition that the real world has to offer.

There are lots of successful freelance, creative, editorial and other writers that make it big but the ugly truth is that there are more starving ones.

Call me pathetically realistic and boring but I’ve mulled this over multiple times already and I really can’t grasp the image of myself devoting every spare time I have into making sure I meet deadlines and requests and offers and other whatnot.

I see myself writing for myself.

Selfish, I know. But I can’t help being like this.

I'm not so stupid after all.

Cards Out was this afternoon and I placed 6th in the whole class!

I was so shocked since I didn't take school seriously last quarter and every time I actually tried to study, something better would come along and I'd get distracted and it was goodbye to Biology textbooks and Math equations and hello to fictional characters and pretty boys.

I'm not so grade-conscious, but I do care about my studies. And I know that if I slack off, Mom would cut down my internet connection and I'd be done for good. I was so relieved to find out that I had honors. Plus, no line of 8's!!! They're all 9's and this has never happened in my high school life before so I was so fucking happy and proud of myself. ehehe

This afternoon was filled with so much hugging, congratulating, shouting, crying (both from immense sadness and satisfaction), and thanking no one in particular. The feeling was overwhelming but the good kind ♥

The ugly truth.

While "eating breakfast".

Brother: How come you never have any boyfriend problems? Oh right, because you don't have a boyfriend! -insert laughing sound that a person makes whenever he thinks he's funny-
Me: Like I care.
Brother: What about that kpop guy you're always talking about?
Me: Oh, Taemin. Yeah, I'm still waiting for him to propose.
-pause-
Brother: No wonder you don't have a boyfriend. You're not only weird, you're delusional as well. Who in their right mind would fall in love with you?
Me: I know right? You're so logical it hurts.

Here.

At the computer lab at school, it's free time!

We changed seats according to our own choices and I'm currently between my closest friends in class. This is the life~ Glad we could finally have even just a little piece of freedom since this is so scarce in school and we can seldom do the things we want.

Anne Mary's watching me as I type this. She says hi.
Kathleen is asking me trivial stuff about blogging. Ehehe. She says that she doesn't get my fascination with blogging. And at the moment, she just told me to stop talking about her. Ehehe.
The class is so noisy but it's the good kind of noise. I'm normally not a fan of disruptions or loud people talking all the time but I'll let this pass because this is turning out to be a good day for me.

Biology is up next and obviously, I think you all know how much I hate that subject. But I think this session's going to be a bit more bearable since we're just going to meet up with our investigatory group and talk and nada and other shit. No Julienne though :( I'm rooting for her. I hope she wins in that writing bullshit. haha. Anyways, I have two of my other close friends around and I'm already thankful for that :)

I hope this day doesn't turn out to be draining.

That's all.  I'm bored. We have nothing nothing to do here but it's all good.


Bye.

Christmas ❅

So today, my mom woke me up around 9 and encouraged me to go and check my Christmas "stocking", which is just a shopping bag filled with candy in all honesty. But when I opened its contents, not only were there loads of my favorite sweet treats, there was a copy of The Sky is Everywhere by Jandy Nelson inside!!! I've been looking for the book since this summer and she just told me 3 days prior that the bookstore was out of stock. She's a sneaky one.


After opening our presents, we headed over to our Lolo's house and had brunch. Stayed there until 3 pm and then went home. Then I had to prepare because I had to go to my dad. Don't want to talk about it. He was happy with my gift though. He gave me cash because that's what I wanted, something insignificant and meaningless. He made me deal with so much bullshit this year that he deserves my indifference. I still can't help but love him though. I get hurt inside and want to cry whenever I see him sad because of my ignorance. I was silently hoping that he'll be happy with my gift. I was silently wishing that he wouldn't give me cash. I was silently begging that he'd reprimand me and confront me. But he never did. Because he's a gentleman.

And then I came home to this:

 My sister's friend thought I was her.


Contrary to popular belief, my sister and I aren't twins!

Wow. Just wow.

Today was a whirlwind.

As stated in my previous post, I was in a bad mood this morning. That bad mood continued on 'til the afternoon.

Went to Rob as planned with Mom, and we bought all the missing stuff that she needed for the night. 2 boxes of Pizza, fruit cocktail mix, a stash of Lays, Danish cookies for Lola...and red velvet cake.

We headed over to Bob's, even though we knew it was a hopeless case because my sister and I had already tried reserving one last Tuesday and we were told that they were not accepting any reservations anymore because there were so many orders. But still, my mother had this gut feeling and she just had to make sure. Guess she really wanted some cake.

We arrived at Bob's and lo, and behold-*drumroll please*-there was no red velvet cake -_-

Mom was a bit disappointed so she decided that we should watch a movie. We bought a giant cheeseburger from Bob's that we had cut into two pieces, Jumbo fries from Potato Corner, Barbecue Super Pop from Taters, and then 2 large watermelon shakes and we were ready to watch Mission Impossible 4. lol

The movie was quite good but I don't want to talk about it. After the movie, I dragged my mom towards 31 Korea because I wanted some Korean ice cream. Stayed there for awhile, watching 2NE1's music videos until my mom got restless and wanted to go back inside the mall.

So we got back inside the mall and my mom said that she wanted to buy me a book so we went to National Book Store. On the way, I guess her hawk-eyes saw that there was a lone red velvet cake sitting atop the display section of Bob's pastries, and she wasted no time getting there and asking if there was anybody who owned said cake. The cashier said that there was none and I could see my mom silently whoop in joy. She bought the cake and then made me carry it -_- With the two large boxes of pizza -_- I was not happy -_-


I'm planning on staying up until midnight just for the food. I still don't feel the Christmas vibes though.

Oh well.

By the way, Mom kept on giving the janitors roaming around the mall hundred peso bills and saying, "Merry Christmas." The woman was generous today.

Self-opinion time.

So there's this new boy group debuting under SM Entertainment (the same company as SHINee) and I went to their facebook page to check them out. And then I saw these immature comments and it annoyed me to no end. I don't even think I'll like the new group that much but what the other fans are saying about them was fucking irritating to read. I'll share some of the comments to you guys.
And yes, those texts in an obnoxiously loud color are made by yours truly.

And look at what I replied to them:

Hey, don't turn on me now. I can only be a bitch on the internet. And seriously, those 12-year olds going on about how their 0pp@rs are going to be less f@m00$e need to shut up. And don't even let me start with their grammar.

A day filled with gift shopping, Korean ice cream, and walks at the park.

Yesterday was both fun and physically draining.  I woke up around the break of dawn, getting roused by my mother’s shuffling footsteps making floppy sounds on the tiled floor. I found out I couldn’t sleep afterwards, so I took a quick breakfast consisting of 2 measly pieces of butter rolls and then read a little bit. And then I fell asleep again.

I woke up around quarter to 9, and since I had some time left before getting ready for the mall, I went online, sent a short but sweet message to Carissa, blogged a bit, and then took a very quick shower. I found out there was no shampoo [boo] so I settled for some conditioner instead. And then I found out that we ran out of my favorite gingerbread body wash. I was ready to drop on the floor and sob at that moment.

Afterwards, grabbed what was on the top of my closet and didn’t even bother choosing another shirt when I realized it was the same top I just wore 2 weeks prior. Who fucking cares anyway? Slipped on my comfy Crocs and I was ready to go.

• I arrived 25 minutes late at Robinson’s and my sister was irritated by my tardiness. Her anger was short-lived though. As always. 
• We had lunch at Bob’s, and then we hurried over to the 2^nd floor and bought a pair of over-priced flip-flops for Dad at Seed. 
• Then we went over to the new annex of Robinson’s, which is the Citywalk, went inside the Negros Showroom, and bought a set of over-priced jewelry for Mom. 
• We went back inside the main mall, went straight to the Supermarket, and bought some over-priced chocolates for Mom [I’ve always despised Ferrero Rocher but my mom absolutely loves them]. 
• We went inside the department store and bought tons of post-its, memo pads, and journals that I’m sure we won’t use. They’re our drugs. 
• And then both of us were craving for some Korean food. We decided to head over to 31 Korea, the new restaurant we haven’t checked out yet, and ordered some Kimchi Tuna rice balls. We ate with SNSD singing and dancing on the flat-screen TV right next to us. Sooyoung is so pretty :3 
• And then we bought some Korean ice cream. The one that I ate was watermelon and its seeds were sunflower seeds. Ehehe it was so good. 
• And then we just sort of walked around the mall listlessly.

After about 15 minutes or so, we decided to head over to Belzette, a novelty gift shop that sells pretty little things at reasonable prices. Spent about half an hour over there poring over the stuff. In the end, we bought 2 Domo pencil cases, 2 Vapur water containers, and 2 sets of bunny ears. I just realized they all came in 2’s. 

And then we headed over to the downtown area of the city and went inside Unitop, which sells lots of pirated DVDs, and leafed over the collections. Please be informed that this was not my idea and I was just dragged along. Prior to this, I actually despised pirated DVDs.
 We ended up buying 7 movies, 2 of which are Korean, and a Korean drama series, Dream High, in which IU is a prominent member of the cast. And then we went home and I fell asleep on the car ride with Korean indie blasting through my earphones.

When we arrived home, my sister wanted to go the park, which is just a couple of blocks from where we live, and look at the Christmas lights, which were scattered all over like snowflakes. Some were really pretty while some were just an eyesore. I was so tired by then that I didn't really pay attention.

All the nerds come out to party.

Late post on Joy's 14th birthday party. Mostly pictures.

I arrived an hour early so I went straight to her house instead of the pizza place.

Leafing through her SLR guide.

We were bored so we camwhored. (hey, it rhymes!)

My sexy best friend.

On the way to Greenoz. Puffy cheeks are puffy.

Ehehe it's so dark.

Candid.

A gathering of Year 2's brightest minds. loljk

We are such nerds and dorks.

Lol water spilled.

Francesca's sexy pants. She looked like she was dressed by SHINee's stylist noonas. lol

On the way to McDo! ♥

Fries for dinner.

A staple in every McDonald's visit.

Chubby cheeks are chubby. urgh

lol

sad

I managed to capture this and when I showed it to Joy, we knew we had to do something about the street children outside begging for food.

We saw these guys...

...and bought an order of large fries to give to them.

we know it's just small, but we hoped that our help went a long way. they were actually kind of intimated by us at first, the one in the yellow sweater even looks a bit nervous in the pic, but they warmed up to us quickly. they even told us to take more pictures of them and show them the shots. it was very nice to have done something good :)

ehehe :)

See? I was very happy with myself. I was on the verge of tears. Joy and I didn't even mind the stares we got. What mattered was that we'd done something good and we were proud of ourselves and what we've done.

Lunar eclipse. Very pretty.

Lizard's tail! This is so totally random, I know.

Morning fezzes :D

Peanut butter sandwich and pizza for breakfast. Actually, Joy's parents offered for some breakfast over at Bob's but I declined. I needed to get home on time for my brother's birthday.

I hope there were more days like that one. ♥

Yesterday in bullets:

• Was not able to attend the Alay Puso. 
• Arrived an hour early for Joy's birthday party, so I went to her house instead of the pizza place. I momentarily forgot where she lived, and I had my brother drive the whole subdivision lol. When I arrived, she opened her gifts from me and was pleasantly surprised by what I had prepared for her. It was a happy moment :)
• The waiter in Greenoz kept bugging us. Creepy guy.
• It was like a 6-Fortitude reunion. Good food, great company, lmfao conversations. Those are things that make me feel thankful to be alive.
• Christmas shopping in Mayfair was a fail, but I got some really nice goodies from Belzette to give to my friends. They've made me smile and laugh a lot this year, it's time to give back.
• Joy and I went to check out the new McDo branch near La Salle. The walls are pretty haha. Camwhored, had  McFlurry and large fries for dinner, and then did an extremely good deed that I hope I'll get to do again soon. It seriously made the both of us tear up a bit, seeing their smiling faces. It feels really good to do something like that. Will explain further in the next post.
• Lunar eclipse was beautiful, in a morbid kind of way. First time to see one, so it was quite enthralling.
• Called my mom to tell her about the lunar eclipse, and she freaked out. The woman was scared.
• Sang a cover of Replay to Joy as her last birthday gift. Complete fail but it was all good, clean fun.
• Took LOTS of senseless videos that we will upload soon, just to annoy you and ourselves. We are such total dorks. They're cringe-worthy, I swear. So many awkward silences and just random parts of us laughing like we were high on weed or some other shit.
• First sleep-over ever. We had lots of plans for the night, but we ended up sleeping at around quarter to 2. We fail at attempting to make our plans a success. We were just so hyper the entire day that when night rolled around, the both of us were beat up and tired. Sobs
• When I woke Joy up this morning, she fucking hit me with her elbow unconsciously. NEVER DOING IT AGAIN. I swear that girl is not a morning person at all.
• Yesterday was ♥

Photos, videos, and everything else will be posted once Joy uploads or sends them to me. I'll keep you posted in the next few days. These will be all for now :)

Camwhoring at its best.

I'm the girl in the striped shirt.

This afternoon's project meet-up was ♥

Some of these girls and I may not be the closest of friends, but I love them because they make me laugh and feel good about myself. We play basketball as if we're all-stars, screaming like if we don't give a fuck about the world, and mock each other, but it's all good, clean fun. We're comfortable enough with one  another that we can be total goofs and not care about being judged.

Outside my close circle of friends, these girls hit home.