This is me with fandom: REACTION POST TO EXO'S WOLF MV TEASER

(with Japanese emoticons para mas intense)

For half an hour or so, I was busy refreshing SMTown's Youtube page because they had a private video and I was so fucking sure it was the MV teaser and I had been waiting since 9 am (it was close to 4 pm already) so call me desperate, call me insane, but it's been 426 days and I was ready to rot from all the waiting. AND THEN I SAW SCREENCAPS BEFORE THE TEASER WAS EVEN MADE PUBLIC AND I'M LIKE, "HOLY SHIT DID EXO FANS ACTUALLY HACK YOUTUBE??? (ノಠ益ಠ)ノ" Turns out they did. Oh, fandom, you are the human embodiment of insanity. But I digress. A few minutes after the screencaps spread around like wildfire, SM finally got their shit together and published the video and I was like YES YES YES FINALLY YES ლ(́◉◞౪◟◉‵ლ)

And then all hell broke loose when I clicked play. I was so busy making ugly crying noises and then going all,

Yes, this deserves its own blog post

Warning: Incoherent post

So last night I had a dream with Jino in it so I woke up this morning with a boatload of Jino feelings and I started whining again about why SM Entertainment keeps on hiding my precious little munchkin because I have been painfully waiting for two years for them let Jino out of their dungeon (Sehun's graduation does not count). I mean, I JUST WANT TO HEAR HIM SING AGAIN. Jino has one of my favorite voices in the Korean pop industry (can I still call S.M. The Ballad a kpop group even when all they sing are ballads?...yes, I can) because it's so warm and rich and it's like hot chocolate in your ears. I don't even know what I'm saying at the moment because I'm sort of rambling all my feelings out but yeah, I have major serious issues with SM when it comes to my little munchkin. I mean, I WAS FUMING WITH ANGER AND ABSOLUTE LOATHING TOWARDS EXO WHEN I FOUND OUT THAT HE WASN'T IN THE LINE-UP. About 70% of my interest in the group went out the door when I couldn't find Jino in their official teaser pictures and I guess that's the main reason why I harbored so much hate on EXO last year (but haha, look at me now, they're my laptop's and phone's wallpapers ////sob////)

This is me with fandom: My MAMA 2012 Experience

I actually slept at an ungodly hour last night because I got home around 7:30 pm so I missed 1/3 of the show but thanks to Mnet's livestream of the whole event, I got to watch all the parts I missed.

Warning: Incoherent post.

Taemin ft. IU - Gee, Juliette, Hello

*Edit (5/27/12) HD VERSION (Click here.)

I AM SO FUCKING HAPPY MY HEART WANTS TO POOP OUT BUTTERFLIES AND RAINBOWS.

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG GIVE ME A SECOND FIRST.

/screams/

No one knows how much I've waited for this duet to happen. Taemin's my ultimate male bias and IU is my ultimate female bias. I've always envisioned the both of them having a duet together but I knew it was false hope because heck, there are so many Korean artists out there and the idea of having one of Korea's most talented female singers having a duet with someone like Taemin (Taemin!) who has a very attractive voice but a meek singer by higher standards is so incongruous that if you told me about this months ago, I would've laughed and told you that you just pulled a good one on me.

But it's like the Kpop god heard my prayers and I wake up one ordinary summer morning and BOOM I find out that these two had a duet together.

Sadly, this is the best fancam that I could find and even though I can't clearly hear their voices over the shouts and screams of the fans, this is better than nothing. I'm pretty sure someone out there with a bright mind would have the decency to post an HD version soon. Credit goes to the video owner.

And can I just say that even though the two looked a bit awkward on stage (given the fact that they probably had no interaction whatsoever before this), I still spazzed like the crazy delusional fangirl/shipper that I am whenever they looked and smiled at each other. I mean, I made a fanfic of these two a year and a half ago. And Taemin's smile just makes the world a better place.

And by the way, I'll digress.

Taemin looks so good with his hair like that. Photo evidence:

Last night:

• It was the coldest night of the year so far, and so I decided to make it even colder by cranking up the air-con full blast and turning on the electric fan at its maximum. I then proceeded to lie on my bed and waited until I wouldn't able to take the coldness anymore. I did all sorts of things to pass the time and distract myself from shivering: I listened to music, sketched until my fingers went numb from the cold, read a book, ate a doughnut, until I couldn't take it anymore. I managed to survive 57 minutes. I was like "DAMN. THREE MORE STUPID MINUTES AND I'D HAVE SURVIVED AN HOUR." 
• And all night, I was thinking the same thing: "Shall I stay here and be plagued with my thoughts until I go insane?" 
• And then at around 10:30pm, my mom announced that fortunately, she wanted to sleep alone tonight and I was like, "OMG YES!!!!! I'M FINALLY SLEEPING IN MY OWN ROOM!!!"
• Spent the next 2 hours reading fanfiction. Life was brilliant.
• And then I was hungry so I grabbed a bowl and the box of unfinished cereal and some fresh milk and sat down at the dining table and ate.
• And then I went back to my room and read more fanfiction. 307 pages in one night, booyeah.
• The amount of fanfiction I read in a day is almost too embarrassing to reveal. 
• And then I thought to myself, "Am I the only one awake at this hour, crying because of gay fanfiction?"
• And then I sort of shuddered at the thought of it.
• I need to get a life.
• But I don't want to.
• Mehehehehehehe.

SHINee's Back.

This will be a little personal overview of SHINee's songs from their latest album, Sherlock. Last night, I tried to stay up for the countdown but my mom had other plans in mind and let's just say things weren't pleasant after my little tantrum.

Warning: Incoherent post.

1. Sherlock - I love the opening where Minho whispers "SHINee's Back". It gave me shivers and I couldn't help giggling like the stupid little fangirl that I am. I've heard that this is a hybrid of "Clue" and "Note" and it's a little bit too um, electro(?) for my liking but I love the fast beat and the catchy tempo. What I don't get is the breaking glass in between lines and the "I'M SO CURIOUS~ YEAAAAAAH!!!". But then again, what is SHINee without derp lyrics, right? I've seen the English subs and they're quite good so I'll let this pass. lmao
2. Clue - It's quite similar to Sherlock since they just mixed in the two songs together. Personally, I like Sherlock better but this one's good too and I can't really say anything about this except that the breaking glass is a little bit unnecessary. Jonghyun's high notes are total ear-candy though, and that's saying a lot since I usually find Jonghyun's falsetto voice irritating. I love his normal singing voice more, even though it's a bit generic (or maybe I'm just saying this because I'm blinded by my love for Onew's melt-your-ears voice).
3. Note - I won't lie or sugarcoat anything because to be honest, the first three tracks sound so much alike. I can't tell which one I like better because all three of them sound so damn similar yet so damn good. 
4. Alarm Clock - LOVE LOVE LOVE THE BEAT, THE RHYTHM, THE FLOW OF THE SONG, EVERYTHING. The chorus is catchy as fuck and it just screams SHINee during the first year of their debut and since SHINee World is my absolute favorite album and I loved all the songs there and this song fits into that album so much and it just gives me a burst of nostalgia and I can't even even transcend how much I love this song into words at the moment and I know nobody can clearly understand what I'm trying to say. This is the SHINee that I fell in love with: the smooth voices, the simple tune, the natural flow. Ugh, I wish they'd produce more songs like this.
5. The Reason - Onew opens the song and seriously, I wanted to cry hearing his voice. It's just so soft and gentle and can I pat it? Everyone's voices sound gorgeous in this song to be honest. But then again, I'm being biased and I'm going to say that Onew sounds the best. This type of song fits his voice perfectly. And again, this song screams SHINee.
6. Stranger - Korean version of their Japanese song. To be honest, I haven't listened to the Japanese version so I'm in no position to say if it's better than the original. Can I just say that even though I like the chorus, I can't say the same for the entire song? I don't know and I can't place my finger around it, but there's something I don't quite like about the song. Maybe because the track doesn't give justice to SHINee? It doesn't sound like them at all. Although the more I listen to it, the more I like it.
7. Honesty - FAVORITE SONG FROM THE ALBUM. HOLY MACKEREL IT'S SO GOOD OMG EVERY LIVING PERSON ON THE PLANET PLEASE LISTEN TO THIS FOR THE LOVE OF ALL THE SHAWOLS IN THIS WORLD I AM READY TO BURST AT THE SEAMS OF MY FRAGILE FANGIRL HEART SHINee, WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS TO ME? OMG GO AWAY, ONEW, YOUR VOICE COULD MELT ALL THE TIGERS IN THE WORLD TO BUTTER. I COULD LISTEN TO THIS ALL DAY LONG. SHINee + ACOUSTIC = LOVE. OMG DOES ANYONE KNOW THE CHORDS TO THE SONG??? AND OMG JONGHYUN WROTE IT FOR ALL THE SHAWOLS:

SHINee - Honesty (a message written by Jonghyun to all Shawols)

I LOVE MY BOYS WITH THE BURNING PASSION OF A THOUSAND RISING SUNS. HOW CAN THEY MAKE ME FEEL THIS WAY? I FEEL LIKE STEPPING IN FRONT OF BUSES, IN A GOOD WAY. OMG ALL THE MONTHS OF WAITING AND YEARNING WAS MORE THAN WORTH IT. I JUST WANT TO RUN THE STREETS AND SCREAM AND PROFESS MY LOVE FOR THEM TO THE WHOLE WORLD!!!

GONE. GOING. GONE.

*gifs and photos are taken from Tumblr.

OT3. WHAT IS ONTAE AND 2MIN.

TAEMIN'S PLAYING HARD TO GET. JUST FUCKING HOLD HIS HAND ALREADY. FORGET DEM CAMERAS. PROFESS YOUR LOVE TO EACH OTHER!!!

GO AWAY.

THE WAY KAI LOOKS AT TAEMIN. I SWEAR THEY ARE FUCKING.

PERFECTION. ARE YOU GUYS FUCKING REAL?

gay

uber gay

super gay

TAEMIN, THE CREEP

WHAT IS BREATHING

IT'S NOT "BEST BUDDIES FOR LIFE". I PROPOSE, "FUCK BUDDIES 4 LYF." ~^O^~

DEAD. DEAD. DEAD. I HAVE DIED AND GONE TO PRETTY BOY HEAVEN.

See how I can turn from a sadistic and emotional little piece of shit into an incoherent fangirl who spazzes to no end? THE POWER OF FLOWER BOYS.

/crying/

WHY AM I LIKE THIS?

A few things:

I absolutely love posting these.

• It's my best friend's birthday today ♥
• Yesterday afternoon was fun. Fries, hamburgers, ice cream, and two lovely friends. What more could I want in life?
• ^Lol a lot of stuff actually.
• Watching SHINee's Hello Baby episodes for the umpteenth time and still, it never gets old. So much love for these five boys it hurts </3
• I am officially broke. 
• I really need to start saving up for the concert.
• HUNGER STRIKE. mehehehehe
• I even started memorizing the fan chants.
• ~Noona neomo yeppeo, nicheo, replay, replay, replay~
• sobs
• I can't take this yearning and longing any longer. I need SHINee to breathe. They're like oxygen.
• Making a fool of myself.
• Who cares? I do what I want.
• Do you know how I feel? You know, when you love someone so much it actually hurts and you need your daily dose of them just so you can continue living? When practically everything they do is perfection in your eyes and you can't help but sometimes cry over their flawlessness and whenever you hear your favorite song of theirs, your heart swells in the most unnatural way yet it seems absolutely right, and you feel as if everything's right, that there's nothing wrong in the world and you have no regrets? That every night, your last thought is of them and in the morning, they're the first ones you think of and then you spend the whole day thinking about them and wondering what they're doing at the moment and you feel kind of sad because they're not within your reach and they're just so far away. But still, you cope with every single feeling you have for them because they make you think that life is still worth living, that even amidst all undertakings and shortcomings, you still survive each day, and it's all because of them. And you want to tell them all your thoughts, feelings, sentiments, everything, but you can't and it brings you down but it's okay because you know in your heart that somehow, they know they're special.
• Or maybe it's just me.
• Sigh.

Close your eyes

Just listen

And please don't cry

OH GOD I KNEW IT.

SOBS
A HINT
ALL MY MONEY IS GONE
"SHINING SHIMMERING SPLENDID" fuck you guys

OH GOD I THINK I'M GOING TO CRY. OMG OMG OMG.

I'M GOING TO MANILA THIS SUMMER AND THAT CONCERT BETTER FALL SOMETIME DURING MY STAY THERE OR I WILL HUNT DOWN THE PROMOTER AND DESTROY EVERYTHING SHE LOVES.

SOBS. AND IF SUMMER PLANS WILL CHANGE, I WILL GO CRY A SEA OF TEARS BY THE CORNER.

MY ONLY CHANCE TO SEE THE FIVE LOVELY BOYS WHO MAKE ME HAPPY AND I CAN'T GO???? THAT CANNOT HAPPEN. I WILL NOT LET IT HAPPEN.

NO.
FUCKING.
WAY.