Dear Lee Jinki,

It's impossible to hate you.

To be honest, I don't exactly know what made me like you. When I first landed eyes on SHINee, you were the plainest member to me. You didn't stand out and I kept on forgetting your name. All I knew was that you were the awkward leader with the chinky eyes, nothing more than that. But as months passed by and I turned into the monster fan that I am today, you  became the special member to me. You're no Taemin when it comes to dancing but the way your melodious, soft voice fits into the most tender parts of a ballad is akin to the beauty of gentle rainfall and your sunshine smile can uplift my mood any moment of any day and you always manage to brighten anyone up with your laugh.

But I can see through you.

Everything is just kind of perfect in this picture...

The soft paleness of his skin, the way his hair falls messily but in just the right places, his side profile, that wistful look on his face that seems as if he's looking far away, or maybe he's worried and thinking about something, or just tired and needs some rest. The button-up shirt that reminds me of the ocean and clear blue skies filled with promises of freedom. The gentle tones of the photograph, the rich honey color of his hair, his hands, his crooked nose, his neck, just basically everything.

I can't seem to get enough of Onew these days.

Onew has a twitter. I just spammed him. He won't even get to read or understand them but I feel miserable right now and somehow, talking to him like that makes me feel better. If only just a little bit.

I heard it's his 2nd account. He managed to make one last night and then clicked 'delete account' instead of 'change password'. Oh, Onew. And now his twitter is filled with bad puns.

On a normal day, I would've been fangirling at the speed of light but oh, well you know, things don't work out like that anymore.

Onew's twitter.
Translated tweets.

Remixes 2.1

Spent around 5 hours making all of these. Obviously, I have no life.  Hope you like them.

feat. taemin

feat. ontae

feat. onew

feat. key

feat. ontae

feat. ot5

feat. onew

feat. 2min

feat. onkey

feat. jonghyun

feat. taekai

feat. ot5

feat. onew

See more of my works here.
Note: tea-with-tablo is my name over at Tumblr.

Credit goes to asofterworld for the template. Unfortunately, I got to download the template back when it was readily available. I don't know where you can get it at the moment. Sorry :(

But it's probably best because seriously, it gets so .addicting that all you want to do all day is make them until your fingers hurt from all the editing, typing, placing, etc etc.

Comments are greatly appreciated! :)

I have died and gone to Shawol heaven. I blame Onew. Although not really. 

I see an angel. Oops, it's just Onew.

Unearthly beauty, he's fucking glowing!!!

I am such a cheeseball.

Lee Jinki, please marry me. I'd accept every little piece of you from head to toe. All your imperfections, your weaknesses, your problems, your deepest secrets, your darkest fears, everything. If I could just see that smile and hear your voice every single day of my life, I'd want nothing else. I'd be fulfilled already.

The world is beautiful and the people are beautiful but nothing and no one is as beautiful as you.

a few things:

• TABLO HAS A TUMBLR. OMG WHAT WHAT WHAT WHAT WHAT WHAT I STILL CAN'T BREATHE PROPERLY. BRB GOING TO CRY IN THE CORNER.
• Really though. Someone hold me, I am fragile. 
• He's online!!! He just posted something. I'm going to freak out.
• Okay, I'm calm.
• He posted something again!!!
• Sorry.
• Okay, I'm calm again.
• Really, I am.
• Trust me.
• -_-
• 
  
• Finally met up with my wonderful friends this early morning up until late afternoon. Even though all we did was talk and splurge on food from different countries, everything felt right. I might post more about it tomorrow if Julienne posts the pictures already.
• I decided not to post my thoughts about the sure-it's-not-scripted reality show on TV because it can already be summed up in one word: stupid.
• I might post my thoughts about every single SHINee music video that's been released though. It's going to be long and it's definitely going to be full of fangirl shit but it's all out of love.
• I'm actually making friends at SFI and I actually like talking to them. I never thought this day would come.
• But they're kind of ignoring me at the moment. Sobs ;_; Friends, talk to me. I'm lonely.
• Ah, whatever.
• It's almost the end of April and I haven't done anything unconventional except for the occasional family excursions. I spent half of my summer blogging about pointless stuff that aren't really pointless but I'm sure you get my drift. 
• I'm rambling now. This is never a good sign of better days to come.
• TAEMIN WANTS SOMEONE TO ADMIRE CHERRY BLOSSOMS WITH HIM SINCE THEY'RE IN FULL BLOOM AT THE MOMENT AND WALK HAND IN HAND DOWN THE STREETS. HELLO, I'M RIGHT HERE!!!
• Sobbing. 
• WHY AM I NOT IN KOREAAA
• While Onew just said that it would be difficult for the for the street sweepers to clean them up since the petals fall quickly in large amounts. He sure cares for everyone.
• Three of my favorite things in the world in one video. So much love.
• 

THE BEAUTIFUL ANGEL THAT IS LEE JINKI/ONEW

I AM SO FUCKING HAPPY AT THE MOMENT I CANNOT FUCKING CONTAIN MYSELF. NO WORDS CAN EXPRESS HOW MUCH I ABSOLUTELY ADORE LEE JINKI AND THEN HIS TEASER PICS COME OUT AND THEY ARE ABSOLUTELY ANGELIC, BEAUTIFUL, BREATHTAKING, FLAWLESS, FUCKING PERFECT, ETC. THIS BEAUTIFUL BABY ANGEL WILL BE THE DEATH OF ME.

The pictures are so absolutely stunning and subtle, in comparison to the other  teasers. They look so innocent and just from looking at them, it's like drinking your favorite tea on a rainy day. This was what I wanted and I know that even if he was half-naked, he would still look all innocent and lovely because Onew has always been like that, innocent and lovely and that's why I love him so much. 

I'm starting to not make sense here, I'm aware. But it's just that I've waited all morning for his pictures to be released and seeing them so beautiful is enough to make me want to step in front of buses, in a good way. I woke up at 7 am on a fucking Saturday morning, patiently waiting and all the hours I've wasted trying to refresh my Twitter page again and again for updates is more than worth it. 

Oh Jinki, the feelings you make me feel.

a few things:

• Let myself go in that comment. Maybe I'm going to regret telling you all those stuff, but I'd rather speak out and let you hate me rather than keep all those inside and leave them to rot away with the rest of my worries for you. One thing remains though, I still love you and I'd hate to lose you, the real you. Because I'm afraid that you'll turn into a completely different person one day, a person that I don't know, a person that became a stranger. A person burdened with all of life's problems and a person who also lost herself. And I'd rather lose a big percentage of my other friends than lose one friend that means a lot to me. Please take care of yourself.
• Sigh. Happy and smiling faces but ruin in their eyes.
• This is almost enough to make me break down in a defeated heap and sob for endless hours. Why can't I ever do anything to help other people? Especially to people I treasure and hold dear.

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• Onew, my ray of sunshine, where art thou?
• Even just the smallest things remind me of Taemin. Milk/banana reminds me of his love for banana milk. Noodles remind me of his ramen hair from before. Seeing unskillful artwork reminds me of his inability to draw anything decipherable. Seeing any kind of flower reminds me that I'm his sunflower, one who will only look at him. And this might seem a bit off, but these little things that remind me of him remind me that life is still worth living. He makes life worth living.
• All I want is you everyday, no one else, nothing else, just you.
• You really have no clue how you beautiful you are, do you?
• I want to fall in love like they do in animes. Or korean dramas. Or those annoyingly cheesy fanfiction. I'll let you in on a secret. I always complain about how stupid teenage love is, but there are times that I wish I could experience it too. Just not the usual dates and making out and other public displays of affection. I just want a person who can sit through my ramblings and can take my um, interesting-in-an-uninteresting-way personality and still find me endearing. Someone who actually takes life as seriously as I do, someone who lives for the present but still dwells in the past and looks forward to the future. To make it short, I don't want someone who thinks like me, but someone who can tell me things I never deemed possible, and thoughts that I'd like to muse over again and again. There must be somebody like that out there, somewhere. Hello, I'm right here.

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• Does anybody still care, or are they all caught up in their own problems as well?
• I don’t necessarily crave for attention, since there are times I would be perfectly content just fading into the background, although it would be nice to be recognized once in awhile.
• I have zero patience for children, especially toddlers. And I think they can sense it too. I kind of give off the aura to little kids, “I don’t like you. Go away.” It benefits both the kid and me. He/she wants attention I can’t give.
• I am different in the sense that everyone thinks they’re different while I think I’m pretty much the same.

Penelope J. Stokes, The Amber Photograph

a few things:

• It's my school's patron saint, St. Scholastica's, feast day today. yaaaaaaaaay
• -____-
• People say I'm really easy to talk to...but that's only half-true. I can only be conversational if we actually have common ground and have things to talk about. If not, I'd be wishing for other things to do, like maybe, oh, watching grass grow or waiting for paint to dry.
• "Almost everybody in the world listens to American music. But not everybody understands English. So why are people so shocked that we listen to Korean music even if we don’t understand Korean?"
• Because they're blinded by what society thinks as 'cool' and what society labels as 'fucking gay'.
• Frustrations. They eat you up and you feel like you want to implode into tiny little bits of warm flesh and blood.
• Why do I keep on misspelling 'with' as 'wtih'? Ugh.
• I know that I shouldn't get caught up in daydreaming but I can't help it. It's very beautiful over there.
• Sobs violently.
• Tell me, have you ever wanted someone so much that it hurts and you can't do anything about it but plot impossible fantasies in your head while thinking about how cruel and unfair life can be?
• Sometimes, I'm only miserable because I tell myself to be miserable. It's like I want the world to look at me and feel sorry, like my sullen disposition would make them realize that I'm not truly happy inside and that this happy-go-lucky personality that I have is sometimes just for show. Because no, I'm not contented. No, I don't feel honest-to-goodness happiness that makes you look at the sky and be thankful for the stars that shine tonight. It's just a facade, because I'm trying to convince myself that despite all these things happening, they might just take a turn for the better. And even if I just want to bring a standstill on time when things go wrong, it feels like a slap in the face knowing that life goes on and stops for nobody.
• Pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika pika
• chu~
• Placed that to clear off the negative air. ehehe
• I've been getting these throbbing headaches since yesterday. They strike at different time intervals, yet they're just as painful.
• Onew, get well soon my precious bunny! I miss you already sobs ;_;
• I can't believe I'm downloading MBLAQ's Hello Baby Episode 1. I'm not even interested in the group. I just find the kids cute and well, I have too much free time in my hands at the moment. And Mir and his obsession with mangas is kind of endearing.
• I don't have time to stan another group though. I have barely enough time with just one fandom lol
• No matter how much you try to alter your words, I'll stand by what I heard and what I heard was the bitter truth.

•  "You say that you love rain, but you open your umbrella when it rains. You say that you love the sun, but you find a shadow spot when the sun shines. You say that you love the wind, but you close your windows when wind blows. This is why I am afraid, you say that you love me too."

  —William Shakespeare

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LOST.

Onew's bunny is on the loose. A video of said bunny is found above. Please contact SM Entertainment for more information. A great reward will be given to whoever can give back the precious bunny to its pitiful master who's been worried sick for days.

Remixes 2.0

So, guess what? I actually have something useful and constructive to do today!!!!!

Going Christmas shopping with sister in a few so I'll just leave these remixes for you guys, since I won't be able to post anything today except for this one. Enjoy them~

feat. ontaekey

feat. onew

feat. taekey

feat. taekey

feat. ontae

feat. ontae

Again, onedayythreeautumns is my name on Tumblr.

Copyright mine. Please don't take out the credit source :)

Remix.

Well, I've been contemplating of doing some remixes ever since I got the latest version of Photoshop. If you didn't know what remixes are, click this. I'm quite fond of them so I made one!^^

It's of Onew's trip to Barcelona and it's not much but I'm a bit proud of it, to say the least. Actually this took me 2 hours. sobs

By the way, onedayythreeautumns is my name on Tumblr.
*Edit [6/2/2012] I am tea-with-tablo on Tumblr now.