To be honest, I don't exactly know what made me like you. When I first landed eyes on SHINee, you were the plainest member to me. You didn't stand out and I kept on forgetting your name. All I knew was that you were the awkward leader with the chinky eyes, nothing more than that. But as months passed by and I turned into the monster fan that I am today, you became the special member to me. You're no Taemin when it comes to dancing but the way your melodious, soft voice fits into the most tender parts of a ballad is akin to the beauty of gentle rainfall and your sunshine smile can uplift my mood any moment of any day and you always manage to brighten anyone up with your laugh.
But I can see through you.
I can see through the facade you're putting up to convince people, especially yourself, that you're fine when in truth, you're hiding and hurting a lot inside.
I love you. My love you for may be superficial, my love for you may be shallow but it's a love that exists. It aches me to see you crying on stage, see you hurting, see you hiding it all in. You're SHINee's stronghold; when the members undergo personal struggles and sail through rough tides, they go to you for solace, for advice, and for comfort because you're their leader, their hyung. Now I'm just wondering who you head off to during dark times, if you even have people you trust.
It's pretty amazing how you manage to play the role of a happy-go-lucky, accident-prone person when it's not similar to the Lee Jinki hiding behind the shadows of the limelight. You've achieved so much at such a young age and I'm worried that you might fall down because of the weak foundation you've set yourself upon.
Stay strong, Lee Jinki. You're beautiful and amazing and I wouldn't want you any other way but please reassess yourself and the decisions you make/will make. You deserve every bit of happiness that comes your way.
Take care because I care.
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