these photos speak to me {4}

Like piano keys

http://blonote.tumblr.com/post/27650966262

Tablo read my message.

TABLO read my message.

TABLO READ MY MESSAGE!!!

Allow me to wallow myself in extreme joy and happiness because I have waited for over 3 months and I am just so incredibly happy right now I can't even think properly.

I fondly call Tablo "my muse" but he's so much more than just an inspiration. Tablo has made me think twice about love and life itself and the mundane events we go through each day. He made me see the world in a whole new perspective and helped me in straightening out my religious views and personal opinions. He's an eye-opener. He reaches out to the farthest depths of your soul and helps bring out the best in you. His words cut deep to the core and they awaken your senses and you're left gaping at the big and wonderful world. His passion with music and with writing is akin to the simplistic beauty that rainy days have to offer.

Tablo's thoughts from Epik High's albumbook, "Map the Soul"

irrelevant photo and i can't even care less

a few things:

• TABLO HAS A TUMBLR. OMG WHAT WHAT WHAT WHAT WHAT WHAT I STILL CAN'T BREATHE PROPERLY. BRB GOING TO CRY IN THE CORNER.
• Really though. Someone hold me, I am fragile. 
• He's online!!! He just posted something. I'm going to freak out.
• Okay, I'm calm.
• He posted something again!!!
• Sorry.
• Okay, I'm calm again.
• Really, I am.
• Trust me.
• -_-
• 
  
• Finally met up with my wonderful friends this early morning up until late afternoon. Even though all we did was talk and splurge on food from different countries, everything felt right. I might post more about it tomorrow if Julienne posts the pictures already.
• I decided not to post my thoughts about the sure-it's-not-scripted reality show on TV because it can already be summed up in one word: stupid.
• I might post my thoughts about every single SHINee music video that's been released though. It's going to be long and it's definitely going to be full of fangirl shit but it's all out of love.
• I'm actually making friends at SFI and I actually like talking to them. I never thought this day would come.
• But they're kind of ignoring me at the moment. Sobs ;_; Friends, talk to me. I'm lonely.
• Ah, whatever.
• It's almost the end of April and I haven't done anything unconventional except for the occasional family excursions. I spent half of my summer blogging about pointless stuff that aren't really pointless but I'm sure you get my drift. 
• I'm rambling now. This is never a good sign of better days to come.
• TAEMIN WANTS SOMEONE TO ADMIRE CHERRY BLOSSOMS WITH HIM SINCE THEY'RE IN FULL BLOOM AT THE MOMENT AND WALK HAND IN HAND DOWN THE STREETS. HELLO, I'M RIGHT HERE!!!
• Sobbing. 
• WHY AM I NOT IN KOREAAA
• While Onew just said that it would be difficult for the for the street sweepers to clean them up since the petals fall quickly in large amounts. He sure cares for everyone.
• Three of my favorite things in the world in one video. So much love.
• 

Positive Kpop.

Recently discovered this lovely Tumblr, and I'd like to share some of the blog's posts.

Tablo, my muse:

SHINee, my sunshine:

Various artists:

Tablo's notes.

Doesn't the world inside a black and white photograph seem more real? 

It's because the real world is losing its color.

The musician and the listener
If this is love between two strangers
watching each other from afar
that rough, burning moment
when you rush in
and kiss
is
the show

 If you have a problem with your body you go to the gym;
if you have a problem with your brain you go see a shrink;
if you have a problem with your soul, you turn to music.

And a little bit of Mithra:

This is our reality

3-4 cups of coffee per day
2-3 packs of cigarettes
3-4 hours of sleep
no exercise

Attention!

It's a miracle that we're walking, breathing and alive.
Good music is important
but let's not risk our lives doing it!
Let's live like human beings, for once! 

How can so much perfection exist in just one group? 

Just...

...how? 

a few things:

It's been more than a week since I last posted one of these and there's been quite a lot of things on my mind these past few days, things that I don't think I'll be able to convert into a proper blog post, so I'll stick with this.

Here goes:

• I am starting to annoy the shit out of myself. Seriously. It's like I want to yell at Chryss to get her shit together and move on with life. All these sentiments and thoughts that only bring her down won't do her good.  
• It was nice for awhile, feeling empty. But then, I started drifting away from myself and it scared me. It was like I could hear my voice begging for Chryss, the usual Chryss, to come back.
• I think I just need someone who won't run away.
• And it'd be nice if I could find somewhere far and quiet, where no one knows and hears me.
• But the real deal is if there's someone somewhere that needs me just as much as I need them.
• And I don't think that person knows what they're doing to me.
• Every once in a while, I try to look around and see if people are suffering as much as I am. If they're also lost and confused and don't know what to do with their lives. But all I see are smiling faces and tear-streaked cheeks not because of pain, but of happiness. And then I try to convince myself that a lot of beautiful things surround me, that happiness will also await me in the end, and that I should never give in to the shadows of doubt. Sometimes, it works and sometimes it doesn't. My world turns dark when it doesn't.
• It seems like people secretly want to be unhappy. Whenever we reach a balance in our lives, we start to feel bored, and suddenly nothing pleases us anymore.
• ^Is this what I am at the moment? Because I'm contented with life, in the sense that there's balance but I still yearn and pine for more. Is that it?
• Sigh.
• I really need to tell Tablo how much of a creative genius he is. I'm sure people tell him this every single day but I'd want to be able to tell it to his face and that he's completely changed my outlook and disposition in life. That even though the whole world stops listening, I only need him to hear me and that I was taught to read receive the lies and to deceive the eyes from seeing between the lines. I want to tell him that he's right, Genius is not the answer to all questions, it's the question to all answers. And that he made me want to cry when he said,""" "  Dying words: soul, eternity, destiny, gratitude, sincerity, peace, inspiration, faith, passion, beauty, music......" 
• sobs. 
• Irritating piece of unwanted opinion ahead.
• Warning. Read at your own risk.
  
• Kai is starting to annoy the shit out of me. It's not that I don't like him, it's actually because I like him a little too much for comfort. I see him as this mini-Taemin who looks and dances just like my little mushroom and I don't like it. The similarities freak me out. And not even in a good away. LMAO why am I like this?
• Told you it was stupid.
• Such is my life.

Epik High.

And since my previous post was of Tablo, I think my next post should be of Epik High's songs.
*Tablo belongs to Epik High.

Click the ones in black, they're links to the full lyrics.

Personal favorites:
Fan
You don't even know my name
I spend my sleepless nights gazing at you
You are My star, I’m your no.1 fan
Baby please, take my hand

Map the Soul
Sometimes I wonder why our paths decided to collide
We started off as perfect strangers
Boy meets girl, infatuation to love
Now you're my whole entire world

Lesson One
Do we learn to read to receive the lies
To deceive the eyes from seeing between the lines?
We use words to bring forth sticks and stones
To sing songs of hate that fill the streets with bones

Daydream
All my thoughts are running wild
That's when I realize I'm caught in a daydream, daydream


Tomorrow
Receiving love doesn’t mean you have it
Covering time doesn’t mean it passes
Breathing doesn’t mean you live

Bad
My lips that used to whisper only good words
Now only swears whenever I breathe
I don’t pass by before the ember becomes a fire
I habitually lie and
I harass love with the name of love

Genius.

The man up there is Tablo and he is nothing short of a musical and literary genius. He is a legend in the Korean music industry. I LOVE HIM AND HIS SONGS SO MUCH IT HURTS. His lyrics make me cry. They are pure magic. I don't know how he does it, how he's so poetic and shit and every time I'm asked to describe him, I go crazy and incoherent because the love and astonishment I have for this man cannot be put into proper words. Everything he writes and raps is magic.
Also, the way he address social issues such as discrimination, identity, unity, etc in such an urban poetic way makes me want to cry and he's so witty and talented and profound and shit and alksjlakdsfhsj
And his whole "no genre, just music" thing going on is just...gaaaah

Receiving love doesn’t mean you have it, covering time doesn’t mean it passes, breathing doesn’t mean you live.
Tablo