and it all comes down to this. a summary of a year in a blog post that will never give enough justice to the true essence of 2013. a year that's broken me and shaped me and twisted me in ways i'd never imagined. a year filled with so much laughter, so much tears, so much cheers, and so many memories that i'll have to pack with me when i leave for college. a year filled with so many people, faces old and new, people with stories behind the curves of their eyelashes and people i am so thankful i talked to despite my awkwardness when it comes to initiating conversations. a year filled with so many blessings and a year that brought into existence the best night of my life. a year filled with fandom woes and personal drama and the never-ending cycle of crying and wiping away tears and putting on smiles because lee jinki once said that he smiles because he wants to forget. a year filled with so much passion, so much inspiration, so many reasons to continue what i love to do and to continue loving the people i love. a year filled with letting go and moving on and learning from the past and staying true to beliefs and personal opinions. a year of silence, a year of breaking out of shells and reaching out to the world with eager arms, and a year of keeping it all in. a year filled with lessons and reasons to be thankful despite all the struggles and all the things that continue to bother me.

i don't usually measure a year based on the events and the blessings and the people who made everything worth it but in 2013, the good outweighed the bad. tremendously. like elephants. like the beauty of rainbows. like the beating of a thousand hearts.

and what's next for little me? this question was asked by an anon on tumblr and i have my reply under the breakthrough. 2014, i'm not ready, but here i come!

:*・°☆.。.:*・°☆.。.:*・°☆.。.:*・°☆ `*:

This be my end-of-the-year/thank you post.

Happy New Year, loves ♥

I won't be able to post later because my mom's side of the family is having a year-end party here at our house and I'd hate to be a wallflower because I actually love spending time with them. So I'll just pretty much greet you all right now and I hope that you'll all have a good year ahead! :)

Also, this year summarized in bullets:

• 2011 was a year full of false hope.
• I've met tons of people whose friendships I hope I will treasure forever.
• So many drama, both good and bad.
• Realized the people I should stick with and those I should get away from.
• Found out about the wonderful world of korean indie and I basically listen, search, live, and breath it at the moment. Dis is da lyf.
• Managed to save 10, 635 pages of fanfics in MS Word. ALL SHINee. ALL YAOI. I have no regrets.
• My dog died :(
• Parents' separation. It's okay though.
• Sophomore year is the best year so far in high school. It's so laid-back and I love it.
• This year has been both good and bad, but mostly good. 
• I'm thankful for this year, even though there was so much emotional bullshit. What's important is that I got through them, and I'm still smiling.

Goodbye, 2011.
Hello, 2012. Don't be shitty and we'll be the best of friends ♥