workload overload

it's happening, i'm finally starting to lose my shit again. there's a massive pile of school work to be done plus long tests and quizzes and personal responsibilities to boot. it doesn't help that my mom has a fucking curfew for me that i can't weasel my way out from because she doesn't understand that i need extra time to do all the things i need to. i'm trying to find a way out of this mess but i can't. i've got messages to be answered and i feel so bad for not replying to them. there are people i want to talk to but they're busy as well. my mother's been working overtime and when she comes home from work, it's either she's in a really bad mood or really tired and i have to play the part of the good daughter even if i'm on the brink of a meltdown as well. everything makes me want to cry at the drop of a hat. my fingers are itching to peel some fruits and vegetables which means i'm in deep water. i'm constantly at war with myself. i just need a little bit of love. and some freaking banana milk.