Warning: Incoherent Post

A scene by scene commentary on Dazzling Girl

0:00 - 0:22 Hurry up, I want to see my boys, not this girl omg I am so essited!!!

0:23 - 0:25 OMG THIS IS IT!!!

0:26 - 0:29 DA FUCK GUYS WHAT ARE YOU DOING

0:30 - 0:39 ~JONGHYUN IS A DINOSAUR FROM YOUR IMAGINATION~

0:40 - 0:45 TAEMIN, I WANT TO PUNCH YOU DUDE YOUR FACE IS SO RIDICULOUSLY GOOD-LOOKING IT SHOULD BE A CRIME TO BE THIS PRETTY!!!

0:46 - 0:47 Taemin, no more hip thrusts please. Have mercy ;_______;

0:48 - 0:53 FLUFFY BUNNY ONEW!!!

0:54 - 1:01 Jjong, you've got immaculate pits but what's up with your clothes? What's up with everybody's clothes? Enlighten me please. Your wardrobes never fail to amuse and perplex me at the same time. Juts what is going on around the minds of your stylists? But whatever fabulous bbys, just work whatever those heartless noonas force you to wear (though I would kill to be in their shoes).

1:02 - 1:05 Finally, I get some Key action. My dearest diva, sad to say I'm not really fond of your new hair. Wait, that's an understatement. I think it's tragic. I'm sorry.

1:06 - 1:07 And here we have Jonghyun with his weird hand movements.

1:08 - 1:09 Ooh lala, SM got some new ideas.

1:10 - 1:24 WHO CHOREOGRAPHED THIS SHIT? I LOVE IT.

1:25 - 1:30 Aw, Jongkey. You guys are so cute.

1:31 - 1:34 The girl seriously creeps me out because she reminds me of a store mannequin, especially when she was seated on the couch's armrest beside Onew. But Ontokki, you look precious as usual.

1:35 - 1:38 That awkward moment when Taemin's applying lipstick on a girl and Minho's styling her hair. Who the fuck comes up with these ideas?! 

1:39 - 1:49 Rainy day~ So happy~ Melody~

1:50 - 1:53 Hooray because Minho finally got to sing.

1:54 - 1:59 FUCK I SAID NO MORE HIP THRUSTS!!!!! ;_______________;

2:00 - 2:01 Taemin twirling is forever relevant.

2:02 - 2:07 Thinking about my life choices because I seriously want to fly to Korea and kidnap five dancing boys who sing, make cute faces, and make my heart do cartwheels.

2:08 - 2:21 THE CHOREOGRAPHY!!!!! I want to crawl on the floor and cry because the dance moves are A++ /sobs/

2:22 - 2:38 Minho's and Key's rap parts. As usual, I turn a blind eye.

2:38 ------- I WANT MORE!!! YOU GUYS CAN'T JUST LEAVE ME HANGING! MY POOR HEART!

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Self-deprecation 2012

It's difficult. You don't want to think about things that just make you feel horrible and insanely insecure but try as you might in pushing them away, they always find a way to track you down and invade your most precious thoughts. 

Sometimes, you know, I try to pretend that they don't momentarily exist, but I may just be one of the most insecure people I know. I'm my biggest critic. I always find something wrong with myself. I'm paranoid. I don't like seeking for attention yet I want it. I don't want to share pieces I've done yet it brings me down when I write/make something and no one will ever get to see it except for me. But then, there's this wave of regret swallowing me whole afterwards once I manage to post something for everyone else interested to see. 

I'm jealous. Of people with so much self-confidence. Of people with so much belief in themselves. Of people who feel a giant swell of pride whenever they accomplish something. Of people others have taken notice to. Of people who have been given plenty of opportunities yet they take it lightly. Of strong-willed people with so much conviction and passion and drive.

Why can't I be like them? 

Oh right, because I'm a nobody. A nobody who always manages to put herself down. A nobody who thinks she's not good enough. A nobody who doesn't have the guts to make it big in the real world.