“Let me tell you what I do know: I am more than one thing, and not all of those things are good. The truth is complicated. It’s two-toned, multi-vocal, bittersweet. I used to think that if I dug deep enough to discover something sad and ugly, I’d know it was something true. Now I’m trying to dig deeper. I didn’t want to write these pages until there were no hard feelings, no sharp ones. I do not have that luxury. I am sad and angry and I want everyone to be alive again. I want more landmarks, less landmines. I want to be grateful but I’m having a hard time with it.”
— Richard Siken
I just wanted to share this with you guys because I feel like the words above speak to me, in a way, because I've been feeling very conflicted with myself lately. Everything is either too much or not enough and when I read this, it just struck a chord within me. If I could sum my life up in a few sentences right now, these would hit home.
Also, I'll be away omorrow up until Tuesday so just a heads up in case you think something happened to me hehe. I'm a bit anxious, a lot excited to see my future campus and to check out the dorms but I know that I'll eventually settle in when the time is right. I'm the type of person who clings to places that are comfortable and familiar but I'm ready to experience whatever college has in store for me. Or at least, I like to think I'm ready.
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