a few things:

• Cards Out was last Monday and I almost got down on my knees when I saw the H2 mark on my card. I wasn't even hoping on getting an H3 but an H2??? When it was a really shitty quarter for me????? When I was on the brink of failing my Math exam?????
• The world works in strange ways but thank you, Lord, that I managed to maintain my honor streak. My grades decreased by an awful lot but I am still so relieved. Just so fucking relieved.
• "JAN, I STILL HAVE AN HONOR!!!" "Gaga, of course! What did you expect?" Glad to know Janina believes in me even though I don't believe in myself. ahuhu lub you
• I'm starting to talk about college with my friends again and it's making me all riled up and frustrated and nervous and excited and just generally overwhelmed. My mother really wants me to take up Law after Creative Writing, which isn't a bad compensation for letting me take up the course that I really want, but I don't know if I'm cut out for it. Being a lawyer has never been in my plans and it's quite interesting but I'm scared. It seems like a really competitive, cutthroat world.
  
• My sister's birthday is on Monday and I'm going to be baking cookies for her team! She's currently the team leader of a group of call center agents and just the thought of adults eating my cookies makes me giggle. 
• I went to buy my ingredients at Chefs and Bakers today after school and Kathleen tagged along with me. I'm blessed to have friends who are willing to go the extra effort to keep me company. It makes me feel like I'm worth spending time with.
• And I am still amused whenever a friend of mine enters Chefs and Bakers for the first time. You really can't help but feel like a little kid again with all those rows and small alleys filled with baking ingredients and colorful cupcake wrappers.
• I found honest-to-goodness cinnamon sticks and they smell heavenlyyyyy
• On another note... CONGRATULATIONS EXO AND SHINee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
• I must admit I was emotional with EXO but I was a crying wreck with SHINee. I'm not really a fan of awards shows because awards don't really prove a group's worth and talent but God knows how much those boys earn all the awards thrown their way. They've worked really hard this year (especially SHINee) and I'm just immensely proud of what they've managed to accomplish for themselves. It is so heartwarming to see them happy, it makes me happy as well. Eek mushy feelings
• And SHINee crying is still one of my biggest weaknesses.
• On the subject of SHINee and EXO, I'll be going to a K-pop convention tomorrow! There are going to be merch booths, cover group performances, fanchant battles, Korean food, and spastic fangirling.
• Also, my sister's going blonde tomorrow. I don't know whether to be scared or excited for her sake and mine. I dump all my hair fantasies on her and I was the one who encouraged her to go blonde. If it doesn't turn out well, it will partly be my fault.
• I swear sago't gulaman is the ultimate thirst-quencher. My love for sago't gulaman knows no bounds.
• My school held its annual bazaar yesterday and today and for the first time in my life as a Scholastican, I didn't go inside. Those things get worse by the year. A friend of mine told me that a stall was selling SHINee posters though. Damn it, maybe I should've gone inside.
• I read the latest update to Zodiac last night and that fucking cliffhanger (literally) nearly killed me. I guess I'm back to weeping over this ongoing fandom classic that is just all sorts of amazing and sasd;jfhakjghdfkjghdkjghkjlfdghksjadhlfskgdjfhkMYHEARTfldkash;fljshgkjghjdshgkjdghjlkl;kasdsfal;kjfdsalk;fjsakfhdgdjkldjOMGNODON'TDIEhaskldjfhfkjhsdlsdjhkljdsfghkjdfghI CHAPTERENDING?NOIWANTMORE;lsadfhkslghdkflsghkjadshgkajdfghkdsjghkdlsjfg.
• Yeah, that was a good way to put it.
• But seriously, I waited for ALMOST A YEAR for a new update. ALMOST. A. YEAR.
• /sobs fandom tears/
• Please continue to send in prompts for the book. Please fuel my writing! :)
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