#365DaysWithEXO

Before anything else, if you expect this to be the usual sappy anniversary posts that I make for SHINee...then I am terribly sorry because this post is going to be a bit crack-ish because those twelve idiots ruined not only my bias list, but also my life in general so I'm not going to go all cheeseballs on them. Thus, this post.

Warning: Extremely incoherent and very long.

EXO. EXO EXO EXO. Where do I fucking start with you guys?

Hmmmm...let's see. It all started with the first Jongin teaser for My Lady in which Jongin's uncanny resemblance to my eternal sunshine Taemin piqued my interest and it was inevitable that I was going to take interest in the new group. And when I found out that Taemin look-a-like (I actually called Jongin Taemin's imposter at some point hehe sorry not sorry) and Taemin were actually bffs4lyf, my feelings were all over the place and I was all "Nuuuuuuuuuuu, I'm already in the shining SHINee World, I dun wanna be an alien in EXO Planet" or some dumb shit like that. Yeah, so bottomline is, since the start, I've always been in denial. Always.

And then, you know, the teasers kept on coming and coming and I was getting really exasperated and let's not forget the fact that I was still waiting for a JINO teaser to be released and there was none and I was getting restless and really pissed and every time a new teaser came out, I would go all, "JUST FUCKING DEBUT ALREADY!!!" Basically, I was already in love-hate relationship with them (bordering more on hate lol) even before the debut showcase and before their actual debut. I looked past their pretty faces and I was annoyed by the over-hype. Also, I couldn't really get their concept.

But then that stupid stupid W Korea photo shoot just up and slapped me in the face and I was crying because Jongin and Taemin were interacting like they were boyfriends or something and Luhan was so pretty and Sehun's everything just made me want to roll on the floor and scream obscenities. WHY IS IT ALWAYS THE PRETTY ONES THAT GET TO ME??? WHY???

After that photo shoot, I was a bit of a mess and I vowed that I will never stan EXO if they made me feel like I wanted to burst at the seams every time I looked at them. See what I meant by denial? /sobs

So I left them alone and focused on SHINee (which was very convenient because they were doing Sherlock promotions at that time and they were having their Japan arena tour while EXO was having their MAMA promotions) and those twelve guys left my mind for awhile. Sure, I would watch them in SMTown Concert fancams and the pictures in Disneyland were fucking adorable and I would see them interacting with SHINee all the time but I was too blinded by my love for my precious ot5 to really care about them. Also, they were horrible live when they weren't lip-syncing. I am a fangirl who feeds on flawless live performances and when I watched EXO's live perfs, it just didn't cut it out for me. I thought they were a bunch of talentless shits BUT HEY THAT'S ALL IN THE PAST I REALLY REALLY THINK THAT EXO'S GOT A BOATLOAD OF POTENTIAL AND HORDES OF TALENT RIGHT NOW, it's just that SM doesn't know what to do with that potential. (duh, SM ruined SHINee's potential) But I digress. I left EXO alone until...until...

UNTIL I FOUND FANFICTION.

BEAUTIFUL FAN FABRICATION.

THE BEST ONES I'VE READ YET.

So I fell into the EXO black hole because of glorious fanfiction and I haven't looked back ever since. Now that I'm in this fandom, I don't know whether to weep or laugh or smile or want to shit on everything they love. They make me feel a plethora of feelings that I don't really want to feel and THEY FUCKING RUINED MY BIAS LIST and I have a shitload of regrets in joining this fandom but I am happy here and I am here to fucking stay. Also, the fanfiction and the fanart are daebak. lololol "I WAS IN IT FOR THE FANFICTION"

So yeah, Happy Anniversary, you attractive idiots!!!

Individual messages (in random order because I don't want to play favorites):

Kris - Kris, Kevin, Wufan, Wu Yifan, Duizhang, oh what the hell you have a lot of names. Damn you and your face because you're so goddamn attractive that sometimes it physically pains me to look at you. I used to make fun of you because your eyebrows look like fuzzy caterpillars but whatever because at the end of the day, you're still the most attractive idiot in this group. Your ghetto accent gives me second-hand embarrassment and the way you're always trying to be cool makes me laugh but I know that deep inside, you're a sweetheart who really cares for his fans and why'd you have to break my little heart when you asked some fans to have coffee with you because that might just have been the dumbest and kindest thing a male idol has ever done. You're an extremely good leader and I know you might have family problems right now but I hope you stay strong and always know that your fans are here for you. Oh, and please don't stop treating the airport like a runway. I like seeing you all dressed up like a model wannabe teehee. LASTLY, AS GOOD-LOOKING AS YOU ARE, JUST ACCEPT THE FACT THAT YOU CAN'T DRAW.

Minseok - Oh, my little baozi, I want to squish your cheeks! You are so fucking cute, how can you be the oldest? You have so much talent it's such a shame that they don't give you enough lines in the songs. You are so underrated and underexposed it makes me sad. But please please never give up. Show those people who underestimate you what you've got because I know you have it in you. Oh, and you have one of the most precious gummy smiles.

Suho - Joonmyuuuuuun. Hey, gramps, I don't have much to say except that I think you're a great leader because I know it must be hard taking care of those five brats under your wing but don't overwork yourself, okay? I know you trained the longest so this probably means the most to you but never forget that your efforts are not being taken for granted and we appreciate everything that you do in order to make us happy. Being EXO-K's (and maybe even EXO's in general) guardian must be a pretty tough job but I know you can do it. I have faith in you. Joonmyun-ssi, fighting!

Chen - Jongdae, let me take this chance to say sorry because I never did pay much attention to you. But your voice is glorious and even though you're still struggling with your Chinese, I know you're trying hard. Aim higher, ~dance masheen~!!!

Sehun - GET OUT!!! Lately, you've been the recipient of my insults alongside Jongin because...because...well, BECAUSE YOU'RE SO ATTRACTIVE I WANT TO KICK YOU WHERE IT HURTS. Violence aside, you really are so good-looking and I bet you know that already so I'm going to stop talking about your face now. You're a brat and I like it that you're a brat and you order your hyungs around, such a thoughtful maknae. Anyway, please don't abuse their love and STOP STICKING OUT YOUR TONGUE ALL THE TIME BECAUSE EACH TIME YOU DO, I DIE A LITTLE INSIDE. But even if I insult you, it's all out of love. I will forever be thankful to the SM representative that had to chase you down just to get you to audition. Here's to more bubble tea dates with your lovely Luhan.

Luhan - Oh, my lovely Luhannie. You know, I used to call you my Chinese princess ever since SM let you out of their pretty boy dungeon when they released your first teaser with Jongin because you were so pretty it made me want to roll around in a box of glitter and sparkles if that was your secret to looking like a pixie prince. Did you drink something from the fountain of eternal youth or something??? Ugh. Ironic thing is, you're one of the ~manlier~ members and I love how you're so endearing and adorable and soft-looking ugh I can go on and on about how ethereal you are. Please don't stop tormenting Kris and never stop singing because your voice is lovely and you are lovely and EXO would lose a lot of its loveliness without you around.

Tao - Huang Zitao, all the Gucci jokes, I laughed at all of them. I'm sorry. But it's all good clean fun! (I think) Anyway, I was surprised (lol more like shocked) when I found out that you have one of the most sensitive hearts. I mean, I didn't expect that from a wushu trained Chinese boy who looked like he could kill a gang of hoodlums with his bare hands and if I'm going to be honest, you scared me at first. But that's all in the past and that was before I got to know you. You're so honest and naive during interviews and it's so interesting to watch your reactions. I know you had a hard time during your trainee days but look where you are right now, was all the pain and struggling worth it in the end? I hope so. I hope a lot of things for you.

Chanyeol - Happy Virus! Oh Chanchannie, when you smile, I smile as well. You do live up to your name, eh? Lately, you've been looking really really good. I still think you can't dance well to save your life but I don't mind because you might just be the most decent rapper that SM has at the moment. When I first head your voice, I never expected such a deep baritone coming from such a dorky face ehehe. You're all awkward limbs and long legs and you make me laugh with your silly antics and face twitches. Never change~

Baekhyun - I THOUGHT YOU WERE JINO AT FIRST PMSL (together with Suho). Damn, I really love your voice. It's got that special tone to it that I can't find anywhere else. It's different and I like different. At first, I was a bit irked by your personality but I learned to appreciate it along the way. And you probably don't know how much I absolutely love eyeliner on guys so whenever you have eyeliner on, I weep internally. Oh, and those predebut videos of you being wacko? GOLD.

Yixing - Spacey unicorn, it's your turn! I'll be kind to you in this message, I promise. You dance so fluidly, I remember seeing you for the first time in one of SHINee's concerts. I labeled you as "the cute Chinese dancer" and I even thought you were up to par with Taemin's dancing (which doesn't happen a lot by the way because I am extremely biased and no one can dance like Taem). But you caught my attention. Other than the fact that you space out a lot (which is fucking adorable by the way), one of the things I really like about you is your sense of airport fashion. I don't know why but I get really excited for EXO-M's airport photos just because I like looking at the clothes you wear. And you of course, I like looking at you too :3

Jongin - I bet you were all expecting me to be rude to Jongin in this message and insult him and tell him to go away or else I'll punch the living daylights out of him...well, you thought right! GODDAMNIT KIM JONGIN I HATE YOU, YOU ARE THE BANE OF MY EXISTENCE, EVERY TIME I LOOK AT YOU, I KIND OF WANT TO HUNT YOU DOWN AND PEE ON EVERYTHING YOU LOVE BECAUSE I AM NOT ONE OF THEM. I don't know how you manage to dance like there's music coursing through your veins and why you move the way you do but it's slowly driving me insane and I want nothing more, nothing more than to scream profanities at your face every time you thrust your hips and dance like the whole world is watching. But you know...I have a very very very soft spot for you somewhere deep inside my fragile fangirl heart. I know how hard you've worked, endless hours spent on perfecting dance routines and killer choreography, that you end up hurting yourself. Please stop hurting yourself. Please. Please take care of your back, take care of your whole body. Yes, this is the price you have to pay but remember that you are worth thousands more than what they bargain you for. You've got the world at your feet, keep your head on the ground. And I love you so much that it hurts and that's why I hate you. Or maybe I just hate myself for loving you too much.

Kyungsoo - I saved you for last, little munchkin! Oh god, where do I even start with you? I'm afraid that once I start, I might not be able to stop OTL. I love your voice, your smile, your face, I love you in general, all of you, everything about you. I don't know how I went from not knowing your name to scribbling it on the frayed pages of my notes and inscribing it on my wooden desk at school. I don't know how I went from not knowing whose melodious voice was singing the lines of My Lady to hearing it every night before I go to sleep and knowing it was your voice lulling me to deep slumber. I don't know how I went from having Lee Jinki as my 2nd bias, only to have you sneak up my bias list and stealing the second throne to my heart right under my nose. I don't know and you know what? It doesn't matter! It doesn't matter because you make me smile, you make my heart sing, you make me so incredibly happy that it's almost ridiculous, how I can be perfectly content just looking at your face and all the little things you do. But who cares if it's ridiculous? I certainly don't. Sometimes, you're a bundle of nerves on stage (especially during debut era) and it literally pains me and I want nothing more than to soothe your nerves and tell you that you're so incredibly talented that there's absolutely no need to feel anxious. Also, there are times that I just want to keep a mini you in my pocket because you're too fucking adorable for my heart to take ugh why are you like that??? If there's one thing I promised to myself, it's that I will never say mean things about you. Never. Ugh, I love you so much.

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Okay, so I meant for this to be crack-ish but there were some parts that were sappy because I couldn't help it. Just goes to show that I'm unstable with my emotions when it comes to these guys. If you've finished reading up to this point, then you deserve a fucking gold medal because you just read 1k+ words consisting of my feelings and I.

Congratulations.

Happy 1st Anniversary!!!