Right now, I want nothing more than to sleep for an entire week because I've been having troubled sleep these past few weeks which is really ironic since it's summer and I should be catching up on the sleep I've lost trying to keep up with school work. But I don't know, I go to sleep at 2-3 am and I toss and turn in bed and wake up at several intervals and always always manage to shake the sleep off my system at 7 am no matter what with this horrible feeling in the pit of my stomach and I don't know where it's from. On the worst of mornings, I make myself a cup of tea and read a book just to appease my need of wanting to vomit but it's never enough. Usually the feeling goes away after an hour or so, but it's always there in the mornings and I feel like it's haunting me somehow. I'm afraid of going to sleep because I'm afraid of waking up, do you get me? Because waking up feels horrible, waking up makes me feel deader than dead, waking up makes me want to hurl my own heart out.
This is insane, I'm insane, everything's insane.
Nothing is what it seems anymore.
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