12.19.2013

This is me with fandom: thoughts on Do Kyungsoo

I'm just crossposting this from my Tumblr. This morning, I got a message asking me about my thoughts on Kyungsoo and this doesn't give enough justice to what I really think about him but it's all I could muster at 11 a.m. on a Christmas break morning.

Man, where do I start. First of all, I’m going to admit right here and right now that I was very very very insanely disappointed when I found out that Jino wasn’t in EXO (I had high hopes of him debuting with them!!!). I think that’s the main reason why my initial response to SM’s new boy group was kind of lukewarm. I’ve never been fond of rookies to begin with. During the time when the only members I knew the names to were Kai, Sehun, and Luhan (because they were the ones being thrust so early into the limelight), I didn’t even bat Kyungsoo a second glance. He wasn’t my type (he still isn’t but I’ll go into that later) and I just really didn’t gravitate towards him. I think I sort of already liked Kai back then but was too stubborn to admit it to myself. But anyways, I wasn’t really interested in Kyungsoo or EXO in general so I left them alone.

Then sometime around August 2012, I started getting more and more interested in the group (which is kind of ironic since they practically did nothing around that time). I started downloading their songs and watching their performances and show guestings and reading fanfiction (this is where I know I’m going to be in too deep) and it was inevitable that I would eventually get sucked into their black hole. I tried to resist since I have this absurd rule of only one fandom at a time (because let’s be honest, I can’t even handle just one fandom, what more TWO?!) but my efforts were futile. The power of pretty boys is fatal. And with the rites of passage of joining another fandom, it was kind of necessary that I picked a bias. But I didn’t even plan on picking Kyungsoo? It just sort of happened?? Like in a stroke of inspiration??? I’m talking in questions right now because it kind of reflects how Kyungsoo became my bias???? I was so sure Kai was going to be my bias but I heard Kyungsoo sing and be his goddamn cute-while-not-even-trying-to-be-cute self and BAM! I was like, “oooooh, I like him. He’s the one” lmao.

Going into further detail about why Kyungsoo is my bias even though he’s not my type, it’s really due to his endearing 4D personality and his voice that could make angels cry. He often keeps to himself and is quite reserved and I guess I can relate to him since I’m sort of like that too? Also, I love the way that he doesn’t seem to try too hard whenever he’s in front of a camera. Some of the members try too hard to charm their way into fangirls’ hearts that it makes me cringe sometimes. If there’s one word I could describe Kyungsoo, it would be natural. But then, I might be going against myself too because I also think he hides a lot of things and has tons of secrets because he just seems the type to not reach out towards people. I understand that though. Practically his life story’s being sold on television, it’s hard to trust people in his line of work.
Also, I love how he can be sassy and mean and snarky and violent when he wants to be but also half the time, he’s this little ball of sunshine and rainbows and fields of daffodils.
All in all, I think Kyungsoo is a special snowflake that deserves all the love and affection that he’s getting. His voice is officially my favorite voice in the whole wide world and his personality is just adorable and all sorts of endearing and he is always free to live in my pocket. He is so tiny in person that it makes me want to scoop him up in my arms and coo over him (funny because he’s still heaps taller than I am).
I feel like this doesn’t give enough justice to Kyungsoo and I actually want to delve further into other things but this is already long and I’m pretty sure no one gives two cents about what I have to think anyway hehe.

Feel free to message me if you wanna talk more about this wonderful human being though! Talking about Kyungsoo is one of my favorite things to do :3

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