Let's talk about the boy whom I planted sunflowers for in my mother's garden. Let's talk about the boy whose name I've written and rewritten on the frayed pages of my notes. Let's talk about the boy who I've watched grow from a cute little boy into an amazingly handsome young man. Let's talk about the boy who (after 3 years) still holds the throne to my heart's kingdom. Let's talk about Lee Taemin.
These past few months, I've been all over EXO and not much SHINee and if I'm going to be brutally honest, my interests right now are veering more towards EXO. I didn't really plan on becoming a fan of theirs, things just sort of happened. You know, sometimes the world just happens for reasons we can't really fathom or for reasons we just choose not to delve further into. How I became an EXO fan is a little bit of both but that's a story I've already told months ago.
Most of you probably think that Kyungsoo's my main bias right now (and I can't really blame you for that, I tend to talk about him a lot nowadays) but in reality, I don't think anyone can ever surpass Taemin's level. He has just left a huge impact on my life and you might be wondering how someone who doesn't even know I exist and someone I don't even know personally can have this strong of an effect on me. Well, that's the main reason why I felt compelled to post this.
When I reached the age of thirteen, my life sort of took a huge plunge and then plummeted down, leaving me to deal with all the broken pieces. Let me tell you, it wasn't easy. It was fucking tough seeing my family break apart and even harder knowing that life will never ever be the same for me again. I was only adjusting to High School, we were having financial problems, and my mother was breaking down every so often that I couldn't help but worry for her sake, and for our sake as well. I almost lost all hope. It was all too fucking much for me to take. I was only thirteen and I felt like the whole world was against me.
But you know what/who was my saving grace? SHINee. Or to be more specific, that bright ray of sunshine up there - Taemin. Whenever I felt down, all I had to do was look at a photo of his and I'd instantly feel better. Taemin made it easy for me to feel happy. Lee fucking Taemin is one the of the reasons why I'm fucking happy today, do you get me? Lee Taemin has given me so much to believe in and it's amazing. He's amazing. And that's why he will always be #1...because he may have just saved my life.
My mother is aware of this. She knows how much Taemin made me happy during those dark times when we felt like it was all over for us. She knows and she understands and I'm so thankful.
Now you know why I broke down when I found out that they were going to hold a concert here. Now you know why I was so desperate to get as close to him as possible. Now you know why my mother is so supportive. Now you know why I am so emotionally attached to a boy I've never met. I've even mulled it over that if ever I do get the chance to talk to him, I won't be saying, "I love you" but instead I would have the biggest smile on my face as I say to him, "Thank you."
This concert's going to change my life and I just hope everything will be worth it.
This post is all over the place, I know, but I just felt the gnawing need to let this out of my system. If you were in my place, you'd understand why these kinds of things are very important to me. Thank you, I hope you have a lovely day.
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