a few things:

• It's officially my Christmas break (actually, my break started 2 days ago) and I plan to spend as much time as possible reading beautiful fan fabrication and writing some of my own as well. I haven't written a proper fanfic in 6 months and I got rusty but I'm submitting a drabble and a one-shot to SFI's writing contest and I dearly hope I win because the prize is a set of SHINee socks. I love socks, what more if they've got my favorite idiots' faces on them? Now, that is something I definitely want for Christmas.
• Well, after our school's Christmas party (btw Natasha, my partner in crime when it comes to fangirling, gave me cupcakes with cute dedications on the box ;__; I luff her so much), I went to SM (in my country, it's a mall and not a famous Korean entertainment company) to buy myself some milk tea because I was craving and milk tea cravings are never good because I get really irritated with everything whenever I don't get my milk tea fix...but I digress. After I bought milk tea, I went to the mall's food court to spend some alone time with myself because I like being alone and I was finishing a part of the fanfic I was reading the previous night when I suddenly hear "Careless, careless, shoot anonymous, anonymous" and I went from -__- to O___O because did I just hear MAMA being played or did I just hear MAMA being played??? I scanned my neighbors until my eyes landed on a girl in her mid-twenties with a smartphone in her hands, mouthing the words to the same song I sing in the shower whenever I'm hyper during rare mornings. And then I just sort of started staring incredulously at her because it's not everyday I hear EXO's song being blasted in a food court. There are a lot of Korean pop fans here in my country but it's unusual to find one in my province. And then I just sort of laughed to myself because she was a noona fan and I really wanted to approach her because I've never talked to a noona fan of EXO's before but I was quite intimated because she was heaps older than me and there I was, in my school uniform, looking like a lost child (or an awkward potato). After playing a two more songs (History and What is Love), she up and left. It was a nice experience.

• You've got me running around in circles and I'm getting tired of trying to chase the wind. You've got actions that practically scream, "I like you, Chryss!" while half the time, your indifference makes my heart swell with something like hurt.
• Way to go, feelings.
• But then again, I'm a maze and you've got no sense of direction and if we try finding each other, we'll both be left hanging. I'm shrouded with mystery and you're shrouded with security and the both of us...the both of us will never work out even if we really wanted to.
• In which Chryss talks about liking a boy who may or may not like her back so she decides to call it quits and instead, chooses to focus on her Korean idiots because it's better this way. This way, she doesn't get attached and this way, she won't end up getting hurt.
•  But what am I talking about? Loving SHINee and EXO still hurts. Pwahahahahahaha ha hahaha :(
•  I'm starting to hate it whenever people ask me for cuddles and this is actually alarming because I love cuddles. Now, I'm just like, "No. Go away."
• You're like a little spitfire, yet so vulnerable. You drag everyone down with your overwhelming sadness and anxiety, making everyone feel like shit. I wonder why I even put up with you.
• I am so done with people pretending. What do you get from trying to be someone you're not? You just end up losing yourself in the way.
• Pain. I love pain. Pain makes you feel alive, makes you feel human. It's weird how pain slowly kills you but makes you feel so damn alive. (It also comes in handy when you're in deep need of inspiration.)
• Drowning my sorrows in iced vanilla lattes because what else can I do?
• Oh, you. Ignore me all you want. Lately, that's all you've been good at. Turning a blind eye until you need me to talk to. You only remember me when you need a shoulder to cry on, huh? Okay, I see how it is.
• Sometimes, I feel like I'm stepping into a battlefield full of hidden land mines whenever I spend time with ultra-sensitive people. One wrong word and they'll explode. 
• I hope you drown in your sea of hateful words.
• Letting someone finish what they're saying before voicing out your own thoughts doesn't only show that you respect other people, it shows that you're a decent human being. You, sir, are an asshole.
• Know what? I'm done with people copying me, copying my interests, copying my obsessions. If you choose to copy me, just don't let me know or find out because I will probably start disliking your everything. Just saying. I should be flattered, really, but no, just...no.
• We like the ruined ones because we see ourselves in them.
• As usual, I like knowing what you think.

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