personal reminders:

1. Just because life seems like a living hell right now doesn't mean you can't turn it the other way around and make a little heaven out of it. Fall back in love with the things that once brought joy to you. Start peeling some potatoes and apples. Start peeling the skins off of grapes and silver-foiled kisses. Start sketching again. Write poems. Bake a cake. Sleep all the pain away. Do everything until you feel sunlight in your heart again.
2. On another note, fall in love with things that you think will bring joy to you. Join that sculpture class. Spend more time with your friends. Give that person another chance. Write letters to your thirteen-old self who was a sarcastic little bitch that read facts about ants. Stop being so angry all the time, yeah?
3. Don't think about him. No, not him. Him.
4. Kaisoo is real to a certain degree. You don't want to come off as a delusional shipper but there's underlying affection in whatever sort of relationship they have. Whatever they have is just different, you can't explain it but there's something there and it breaks your heart that you have to force yourself into thinking that it's just fanservice when you think it's so much more.
5. Wasps defend themselves by using their poison. Be kind to wasps. They just want to protect themselves. Kind of like you.
6. Patience, dear. Patience please. Everything will be over soon.
7. Do not mistake the acid in your veins as morning depression. We're not going there again, Chryss. It hurt too much. Just brush it off and pretend that the world isn't against you. At the end of the day, all you've really got is yourself. Take care of yourself.
8. Building a fort out of your blankets and pillows each time you feel like breaking down isn't going to block the bad things from happening but at least it makes you feel warm when the AC is on full-blast and you feel like shrinking away.
9. I'm sorry but you need to stop drinking so much Coke. Your stomach is paying the consequences for your borrowed happiness. Twelve minutes of having satisfied taste buds does not equal to an hour's worth of painful acid attacks. Listen to your mother please.
10. Wow, you're fucking broke. Stop buying things you don't need. Retail therapy only works for a short while. You'll go back to being sad after a few days. Remember that.
11. Free yourself from yourself. Chryss is suffocating. Shed layers of your skin. Let your hair grow. Change the patterns you've grown accustomed to. It's never too late to be a better person.
12. I can't believe you just asked for the rain to stop. Let the heavens cry, they've been holding their tears for so long. Everyone needs a break from sunshine.