Life.
LIFE.
L I F E.
It keeps happening and I just want it to
Stop.
STOP.
S T O P.
I am not ready for Cards Out, not ready for school, not ready for the freaking world. I just want to roll around on my bed all day and read and write. I don't give a flying fuck about the lesson in Math right now and it's really frustrating me because I need to give a damn about things that bring me down and it's enough to make me want to scream and pull my hair out. Speaking of things that bring me down, I've already accepted the fact that my grades decreased by a long shot last quarter and I won't even be surprised if I didn't make it to the honor roll. Second quarter was the shit, in a really bad way. I guess it's time to finally start prioritizing school because I just want to make my mother proud. Even if she doesn't necessarily ask for high marks on my card, I know she expects them and I know she wants them. I owe her at least that much.
On a brighter note, planning and working on the book is really making me happy. I'm scared but Joy and I are willing to give this a shot, for what its worth.
But goddamnit I am just. so. tired.
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