So after several months of thinking it over, I've finally made up my mind that I'm going to take Creative Writing as a course because I have this gnawing fear somewhere inside me that I'm going to fucking regret it in the future if I don't at least try to pursue a career in writing. I'm pretty hopeless when it comes to Journalism and I know that I'm not good enough when it comes to Creative Writing but I'm going to try with every fiber of my being because this is what I want for myself. I want to write. The possibility of starving and not having stable jobs is a big threat and to be brutally honest, I'm fucking scared about this decision but seriously...I want to write. I want to write and touch people's hearts and people's lives with my words. I don't want to just dump all my writings on a blog that people barely visit. I want my words to reach corners of the globe because if I can't travel the world, at least my thoughts can. At least my words can. At least my happiness and sorrow and grief and sadness can.
I am so scared though. So so so scared because decisions are so delicate and fragile and they can either make us or break us. I just hope that everything will be all worth it in the end.
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