FYI: I DON'T HATE KAI (hey, that rhymes)

So this morning, I received a message on my qooh stating, "Don't hate Jongin.. Think about his passion.." and I didn't know whether to laugh or cry or settle for both so I just kind of rolled around on my bed and let out a really deep sigh.

Guys.

Guys. 

GUYS.

If you think I actually hate him, then you've got it all wrong ;~~~~~~~~;

Let me lay it down for you. If I say I hate a certain person but then proceed to reblog ridiculous amounts of photos of his face, can you really call that hating? He has his name on my Twitter account, I talk about him all the time, I watch countless videos of him dancing the exact same choreography over and over again without getting tired of it, I read fanfiction about him, I visit his fansites for updates, I write about him...can you really call that hating? Yes, he makes me feel unwanted feelings all the freaking time and I insult him every chance I get but at the end of the day, I can't say I hate him. I am weird when it comes to loving people. I say Sehun is the devil incarnate but I coo over adorable photos of him and then make whimpering noises when he looks super attractive wearing nothing but a wife-beater and skinny jeans. I say I hate Jongin but then I felt like crying when I found out about his waist injury and I was so mad when he got injured at the airport because of a few reckless fans. It genuinely pains me to see him getting hurt. 

Jongin is misunderstood, in my opinion. He's this sexy dance machine on stage and I've had several people calling him a "whore" (like wtf?) but he turns into this bumbling shy mess off stage and during interviews, he is so fucking awkward and makes the lamest jokes ever that I can't help but feel sorry for him and want to pat him on the back for trying. He's worked so hard to be where he is right now and I can't even begin to imagine how much effort he put into all those dance routines for their teasers. People kept on complaining about why it was always Jongin Jongin Jongin but they didn't even start to think on how hard it must've been for him. 

I could go on and on about why I love Jongin but

TO MAKE THIS FAST I AM JUST GOING TO SAY THAT I AM A REALLY BIG JONGIN FAN AND I LOVE HIM VERY MUCH. YEAH, HE RUINS MY LIFE BUT I LIKE HOW HE'S RUINING IT.

The End. Now, please pretend that you never read this post.