idk i just want a large bowl of ice cream and a bunch of romantic comedy chick flicks and maybe thrown in lots of pillows because i wanna cuddle with myself or you know i could just sleep everything away because nothing remotely interesting is happening with my life anyway and even if i sleep for a week, i don't think it's really gonna matter and i'm just tired of being tired of not doing anything, do you see my dilemma? i feel so cut off from the outside world i don't find it funny anymore, i just find it really really sad and pathetic and i feel like i'm a living zombie, alive but dead on the inside and wow i want to eat your brains. i feel like crying, feel like laughing, feel like writing, feel like throwing my notebook, feel like taking a walk, feel like shutting myself off in my room, feel like screaming, feel like keeping it all in, feel like sleeping, feel like staying up until the wee hours of the morning, feel like enduring life, feel like killing myself. i've become a walking paradox, i love it and i hate it and i just wanna be left alone but i want someone to listen as well.
Of rainy days, cloudy skies, fiction, Korean music, pretty boys, agoraphobia, thoughts on paper, and the scent of rain on dry earth.
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