a few things:

• I lied. I cried. A lot.
• I am so sorry to the anon on my qooh asking for a k-indie playlist. I'll try to make one as soon as possible, bby. I'm a mess right now.
• Life has not been okay to me these past few weeks and I just wish it'd lighten my load but no, once a problem unveils itself, more problems follow and I feel like I'm going to reach my breaking point soon. Like, really really soon.
• I actually want to talk about Taemin and Naeun on We Got Married but someone sent in a question regarding that for my 2nd vlog so I'm going to have to save my thoughts for later. Speaking of vlog, send in your questions? I need five more! (just click here)
• It's 11pm and I'm reminiscing my days as a Pokemon trainer. I was 9 when I started playing it on my GameBoy and DS and during my first ever battle, I chose Torchic when I should've chosen Mudkip because the second best water pokemon in the Ruby, Sapphire, and Emerald versions was Gyarados and before I could have Gyarados, I had to catch Magikarp first and let it evolve and well, MAGIKARP IS REALLY FRUSTRATING AND NOT TO MENTION UNDENIABLY USELESS so sobs I had to divide the experience share between my main pokemon and Magikarp and I was all, "WHY WON'T YOU JUST EVOLVE ALREADY SO WE CAN KICK SOME FIRE POKEMONS' ASSES!!!" And if any of you are judging me for choosing Torchic instead of Mudkip, well I was 9 and I liked cute things and Torchic was cute but hey Mudkip was cute too but still, Torchic was cuter and I'm rambling right now oh god
• You know I have it bad when I start rambling like a stupid idiot.
• On another note, I miss playing Harvest Moon and Cooking Mama.
• /GOES OFF TO SEARCH FOR NEGLECTED DS
• Can you tell how much of a dork I am? Sigh.
• I have this idea for a Kaisoo fic and I'm itching to write it but I'm stuck somewhere in the middle and I'm not really sure if I'll be able to pull it off because it's complicated and I hate complicated things.
• "I hate complicated things" says the girl who complicates every single thing in her life.
• I HATE MYSELF.
• The SHINee and EXO 2013 Calendar apps are not available for Android users. WOW SMH
• Today, I screamed into my pillow until my throat hurt so now my voice sounds hoarse and my eyes are puffy and the bags under them are becoming increasingly darker.
• What is sleep? I only know toss and turn and quick naps during the day.
• Patience is a virtue...that I do not have so if I don't get a comeback from EXO soon, I am giving up on life.
• Just kidding!
• Although not really.
• My best friend left for her European trip and I'm stuck here and she'll be gone for twenty days and I am going to miss her so much and I already went all emotional last night on Twitter but she called me earlier this morning and I almost cried but I tried to be strong but now I feel so alone because sometimes, I feel like she's the only one who's willing to listen and actually tries to understand me. 
• I hope she has the time of her life though.
• "The Pacific Ocean is the Biggest Enemy", "Banana Milk is the Key to Happiness", "Kim Jongin is the Reason Why We Can't Have Nice Things"
• ^I was asked for titles to name my life story and those were what I came up with. 
• I fought with Mom earlier this night and it ended up with slamming doors and angry shouts and unforgiving looks. Saying I'm okay to people asking how I am makes me want to hurl.
• I'm going to be alone in the house for 8 hours for the next two, three, four, maybe even five (!) weeks. Who knows, I might spend my birthday alone ahrhr
• WHY IS EVERYONE LEAVING ME I JUST WANNA KNOW WHY
• Oh whatever, I'm just going to drown all my sorrows in iced vanilla lattes.
• Wait, I'm running out of vanilla latte packets. First, no more banana milk. Now this. SEND HELP AGAIN.
• Wait, I have powdered melon milk and I can always boil some ginger and make it into tea.
• Blogging about my beverage preferences at 11:24 pm because I am sad and shit and this is a nice distraction.
• My laptop's going to die on me soon. G'NIGHT BYE