personal reminders #2

1. You are going to make this into a thing. You am going to make this into a thing because sometimes you are so caught up in life that you forget about yourself. You forget that you have feelings. You forget that you also need to be self-centered as you are selfless. You forget that you have your own life to live and others can live theirs fine without you. You forget and you need to be reminded.
2. Stop caring so much about that girl who calls herself a friend despite the many occasions that have proved otherwise. She's not worth the fight anymore. Maybe she never was.
3. Why have you stopped writing? Fucking grab some pen and paper and write about everything that hurts and everything that makes your heart smile. Don't let the wild thought clutter inside your head until they turn you into a mess. Let them out in the open, let out the beasts, let out the monsters that want to turn you into one of them. Destroy them before they destroy you.
4. Jongdae is special. Love him more.
5. What's stopping you? Graduation is just three days away and you might never see some of them ever again. What's stopping you from confronting those who have hurt you without them ever knowing because the smiles you threw their way made them think that it was okay that they've brought you down? What's stopping you from thanking those who have made everything worth it? What's stopping you from crying and hugging everyone dear? What's stopping you from getting angry instead of just swallowing your pride? What?
6. The tears your mother shed last night during the Tribute are indication that she loves you more than you know. You didn't cry because you wanted to be strong for her. You didn't cry and you should be proud.
7. Your planner is dead, just like how you feel inside. Fill it up again and fill yourself with life again too. You deserve at least that much. No, you deserve so much more than just that.
8. You're not as great as they say you are and you've got proof to back it up. You're hopeless when it comes to Math, you get tired easily (physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually), you don't believe enough, and every night you feel like breaking down.
9. Kim Kibum is actually the most beautiful human being on Earth. The amount of new photos of his face that  you have on your phone is quite alarming but that's what beauty does to you. You long for more and more of it.
10. And maybe the reason why you feel so lost right now is because you are struggling to find yourself again. It's okay. You're going to be okay.