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Five years. Oh my god. Five years ago, I was eleven and singing "Noona Neomo Yeppeo~~~ Replay, Replay, Replay" because those were the only lyrics I could sing and fast-forward five years later and that song is still the one dearest to my heart. I don't know how five undeniably talented boys wriggled their way into my life but they managed to do it and I am still here, chanting, "We are going~ Ultra SHINee Transformation!" and I feel like crying because it's been five years and time flies by so fast and I can't believe how much they've grown and changed and just transformed from pretty little boys into devastatingly gorgeous young men who never fail to perform the best lives with the most awesome choreography and still manage to make everything look effortless.
I wasn't exactly a part of the fandom. I didn't fit in with the people over at SHINee Forums International, my close circle of friends don't like Korean pop, and I was too much of an awkward potato to make friends with other fans so I hid in this little rabbit hole and vomited words about them because it's the only thing I can do. And you know what? I'm happy with this. I'm happy with supporting them on my own, whisper-shouting fanchants while watching live performances, and cooing over pictures and having mini-meltdowns whenever they release a new album. It's a quiet way to live as a fangirl and not many people choose to walk down this path but at the end of the day, what's important is that you love and support them.
I know I've been all over EXO these past few months and if I were going to honest, my interests are leaning more towards those 12 little shits at the moment, but SHINee will always be my favorite kpop group, Replay will always be my favorite kpop song, and these five boys will always have special places in my heart. They've helped me through so much emotional bullshit that there will never be enough words to express how thankful I am and it's quite amazing, how they've managed to become such a huge part of my life and not know about it. I don't know what to say anymore, since I'm all drained and I have so many feelings it's hard to pinpoint all of them and write about my emotions at the moment. I think I've already expressed enough in last year's anniversary post and I'm afraid I'm going to start crying if I go on.
Lee Jinki, Kim Jonghyun, Kim Kibum, Choi Minho, Lee Taemin, bitnaneun, SHINee!~
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