i wrote an apology letter to my sister last night because she told me that i am so apathetic and indifferent and reserved and generally cold and that she feels as if i'm not capable of truly loving anymore.
"truly loving"
i am so laden with self-hatred that it's slowly destroying the love in me. i hate this. i hate myself. i hate what i've become.
someone save me from myself.
Of rainy days, cloudy skies, fiction, Korean music, pretty boys, agoraphobia, thoughts on paper, and the scent of rain on dry earth.
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